I want to share a story with you about my life when I was a younger adolescent, a story about an angel coming down and opening my eyes. I'm not going to go much into explaining who I am I just want to tell you a story from my memory starting from awhile back. Back when I started middle school, I entered a high school environment for the first time. My parents and teachers from elementary school arranged for me to take an aptitude test so that I could enter into the "advanced" program.
I remember being so angry and against them trying to force me to go into the alternate schooling that I rebelled vigorously.
I didn't want to be "different" and I wanted to make "normal" friends. Nonetheless I was enrolled in these classes, yet I reserved the right to my freedom of choice, so I started skipping classes at that young age, and received a lot of rebuttal at home for it. I did make lasting friendships and attend class sometimes, but I only did so under the influence, or if I wasn't under the influence I ranged from being very engaged or very apathetic, bored, in my own world, making friends, or somewhere else. (I was 12).
I made friends with others who also had a lot of anger towards authority, and I started doing recreational drugs (marijuana) after my boyfriend of one year dumped me. That led to trying ecstasy, binge drinking, and all sorts of self-destructive behaviour. However, on my 14th birthday, I snuck away from home at midnight, went to my cousins friends house and smoked more marijuana than I could handle and started to have a severe panic attack.
Everyone was asleep, I had just finished watching a horror movie and I stopped breathing. As a child every time I was angry I would hold in my breath. I slowly started to feel life force leaving me, but in my state of panic I wasn't aware of what was happening or how to reclaim my life force as it was slipping away.
Miraculously a light being appeared before me, and he appeared to be in the center of my consciousness. He radiated with a beautiful blue color, and simply said loudly and powerfully, "Breathe". I took in a gigantic breath as if it were the first breath I had taken in my life, and it nourished my soul. It was amazing! I've never questioned that this was a sign from God telling me that my life purpose is not complete and I need to finish what I came here to do, and that I needed to raise my vibration NOW.
I immediately stopped using drugs, and from that day forward I saw myself and life completely differently. With determination and dedication I continue to carve out my path of enlightenment and devotion to all things higher. Every where I look I am able to peer into the heart of things and I have the capacity to feel very high levels of compassion and to this day I am still overwhelmed with how much love I have for the planet. I am grateful for the intervention, it was a wakeup call after years of being shut down from other (not mentioned) abusive experiences I've endured and witnessed.
The experience was very real and life changing for me. I love Angels, and the Angels love me and everyone and I continuously feel their presence. Five years later I am now being guided to meditate regularly, to eat organic foods, cut caffeine from my diet, stop eating meat, refrain from processed, fast, and junk food, and to boycott unethical companies/ corporations (there are some that come to mind). These changes are small and manageable and will help set the groundwork for even further changes, and hopefully inspire others to do the same.
Since I was 13 I've known I was an Indigo, every list comprised to describe if your an indigo fits me very well, and well, I just know!. Although not having very many role models, and not following my inner guidance frustrated my abilities to properly channel my compassion and deep love for life and everything good, and still sometimes does.
Now I'm attending University, and I have my own apartment and a part-time job. I'm finding myself relentlessly apathetic, I haven't been studying, but I will cram as much information as I need to in order to pass Sociology and Psychology. I dropped Statistics and I'm listless when it comes to Chemistry, I don't care whether I pass it or not. I don't attend my lectures, I've only been sleeping during the day after work, and spending time with friends or talking with friends.
Even now I'm praying to Archangel Raquel who will find friends for me who are as interested in revolution as I am and want to live as clean of a life as possible, who believe world peace is possible, take me seriously, and do not laugh at my efforts or mock me for being a sensitive being, have a great sense of humour, have a large compassionate heart, are authentic and can help me feel comfortable with being authentic. This kind of relationship can make miracles happen!
I graduated high school wanting to go to University to get a bachelors degree in Psychology, and to continue until I get my doctorate and can become a therapist. I want to live in full integrity and turn my passions into a fulfilling earning in life. I am just finding University to really feel dissatisfying and I'm impatient, I just wish I was making a difference in big ways right now! Please pray that my life will be infused with passion and my life's work helps change the world for the better, what ever my life's work may be. Please pray for messages from heaven to shoot down to me about what my life's purpose is, what I can do now and pray that I am receptive to receiving guidance and have the courage to listen. Thank-you for reading this story and having compassion for my life, Namaste <3