I have been going through some very strange experiences lately where I sense a persons emotions and even sometimes thoughts during the time of their tragic death. When this happens to me I get a strange feeling like I am not in my body in a way and like the thoughts and emotions of the other person have taken over, it is hard to explain so I will provide a couple of examples. A lot of the time when this happens to me I don't even directly know the person who has died, a couple of times it has been friends of people that I work with, whom I have never met or even heard about before.
The first time that this happened to me was around a year ago a family friend who I did know quite well took his life, the night that this happened I was up all night crying I had a horrible feeling, I felt very hopeless and depressed. I also felt very disconnected from my body like I was floating above myself (I have noticed that when I pick up on empathic information I almost feel as though I am drunk and can not think clearly at all, I really hate the feeling which is why I can't drink anymore). I knew that this was not my own energy at all because I have been dealing with being very empathic my whole life and I am able to figure out when something is my own energy and when it is not mine, but I was not able to disconnect myself from this energy. I kept having an obsessive thoughts all night which were very out of character for me." if only I had a gun" popped into my head which we later found out when he was discovered 2 days later that that is how he took his life. I also wrote a letter to my family that night saying that I was so sorry but I could not live here anymore and that they couldn't have done anything to save my life I knew that this letter was not actually to my family or from myself when I was writing it but I felt like I urgently had to write out this letter and a couple of minutes after I finished writing this letter I felt myself go back to normal, like all my own emotions came back and I was able to feel like myself again and finally go to sleep after the long emotional night I had to deal with. The whole time this was happening to me I knew that these were not my own thought or emotions and I was trying to figure out what was going on and I was trying to surround myself in white light and block out the energy but it seemed like all my attempts where failing.
The second time this happened to me it started out with me having a dream, I had a dream that I was at some sort of body of water and I was there with my co-worker and all of a sudden she started crying and pulled a boy who I have never seen before out of the water and his face was all blue. I just stood there watching her while she held him and tried to get him to breathe again but he wouldn't. I didn't really think too much about this dream because I always have very vivid dreams that I remember when I wake up, so I didn't think much of it until I noticed how I was feeling the next day, I just did not feel like myself at all, I felt very depressed the same as the first time this happened to me but this time it was not as extreme of a feeling. I felt like this all day, and once again I knew that it was not my own emotion as I am always a very positive and happy person and it is very rare that I am ever in a bad mood. All throughout my day I was trying to figure out whose emotion I was picking up on and I just kept getting told that something happened at work. I pass over a bridge on my way to work and as soon as I got onto the bridge I was bombarded by images of a man jumping off of it. I was working with the co-worker who was in my dream the night before and when I got to work I was expecting her to not have shown up or to be very upset due to the loss of the person I saw in my dream but she wasn't at all when I got there she was perfectly fine. So I thought that maybe it was just a dream and that maybe the visions I was having was just in my imagination or something, but I was still left with the horrible feeling for the rest of the day, The next day my co-worker got a phone call from her mom saying that her best friend from back home had jumped off a bridge.
The third time this happened to me was a few weeks ago, and it was the most unsettling experience I have ever had with these sort of things. I was enjoying a day out with my friends and we ended up stopping for coffee. I started getting a very horrible feeling and I felt very unsafe as though someone was going to come up to me and attack me, I kept having images show up of someone coming from behind me and stabbing me and it felt as though someone was standing behind me, like when you sense the presence of someone who is not there. It also felt like the back of my neck was very "unprotected" if that makes sense it is a weird feeling like I wanted to put on my hood or wrap a scarf around my neck to make me feel more safe I felt very vulnerable in the back part of my neck, I don't know if anyone has experienced that before or if it is just my weirdness I don't know. I ended up having to go home because I felt very scared and paranoid. I felt off all day just like the other times this has happened to me but this time felt quite a bit different. The next day I found out that one of my friends cousins was found stabbed in her home.
The reason I am posting my experience is because when this stuff happens to me the emotions are very very strong and it scares me, I don't like feeling the emotions of people who are going through very tragic experiences and I would like to know if anyone has any suggestions of things I can do which might help me, thank you for reading I know this post was quite long