I moved into this house a few years ago. It is very old, i'd say 100-200 years old. When I moved here, while the feelings were benign, I felt other presences. I have always been a "sensitive". However, even a skeptic could tell the house definitely has history, and I could feel many many people lived here before I. There are strange hiding rooms, with little doors but once you step inside, the rooms are huge! It looks like a place where people were hidden, Like an underground railroad or similar nature. It turns out several people have died here as well. One was apparently a suicide, another one died in her sleep (a 16 year old female with the same name as me, I moved into this house at 16) and that's all I know of for now. It wouldn't surprise me if there were more deaths here that I don't know about. Anyways, strange things happen here. Good and bad. I feel as if I have had many revelations here and that I moved here for a reason. Moving here made me acknowledge and take my gifts seriously, as I have always kind of ignored them. Next door is a catholic church. Across the street a very old graveyard. I feel as if I am being protected, yet attacked. I assume that because of all the lives lived here, perhaps there is a magnetic vortex of mal energy. Repelling it and attracting it. I have had several pets die here. That's probably the most extreme, most of the things that happen here are just situations that are draining. So with that being said, I don't think these spirits are evil, but I do think they feed off of the energy here. I am starting to notice patterns in said situations that manifest. Everyone says my room is like a time portal, things go either super slow or super fast, and that my room makes them tired and lazy (I am always tired here.)
I know of at least two spirits here. I am not sure if they are the spirits of the people I have mentioned. I know it would be logical to say it probably is them, but I just can't help but feel like it's not. I have also captured the two on video, as orbs. (I took some acid by myself, with the intention to open myself to a state of higher consciousness. No bad feelings, and I didn't take enough to trip hard, like, I didn't feel wacky. I felt completely normal, grounded and felt inner peace. I put on some relaxing music and had some candles lit, turned on the camera, and you see them literally fly into my hand, and I start to touch the flame of the candle, not feeling a thing.)
I try to communicate, but don't get answers. They just make their presence known. They stay around me, "jump" in electronics, (the computer, the ac, the heater) making this *clicking/tapping* noise in the walls through the house. Back and forth, on and off all day and night. Sometimes if I lay in bed in the dark, I see a grey mist hovering above me. One of my friends saw the same here with me in my bed awhile ago, before I even knew about any of this. So recently I started putting all this stuff together. I thought it was just the house, until I went to a friends house, and heard the same thing fly/click through her wall. (and that house is lovely and has a great energy to it) So, is that the spirits following me? Or her own that I hear? Because I sometimes think my friends also to be haunted. They are all good people, but with troubled lives, and we know that experiencing bad things can draw these things to you. I have been possessed before, but not at my house. I have seen my friends possessed, many times, but I don't know if its actually a spiritual possession, or a mental ego attack. Like possessed by lust, greed, ect. Are they the same thing? It's kind of funny (but not really) when I try to figure it out, I will call them out on whatever theyre doing, and they get this "deer in headlights" look of confusion and have a great way of playing it off. My friends also have gifts, and I am extremely connected to them via tele & em/pathy but they choose to ignore them and don't like to talk about it. They piss me off because they think they are all bipolar and nuts, try to take all this medicine to make them feel normal, when I know theyre not crazy. Or normal. I see what goes on in them, but I feel odd trying to explain this stuff to them. What if I am totally wrong? I don't want to misguide them, or have them live in fear and confusion. When I do feel I should speak up, they have extremely high defense mechanisms and don't want to hear what I have to say and will quickly try to change the subject. I think they are scared of the unknown. They don't have much interest in self knowledge, sensitivity, intuition, spirituality or religion ect.
Thanks for reading. I apologize for this being so long and a bit all over the place. Not something I vocalize too often. Now I leave you guys with these questions:
So, are these lower spirits? Or are demons following me?
Sometimes I feel like it's both.
Should I try to cross these spirits over? Or do I just move?