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Relearning Myself


I have experienced strange things since a prepubescent child, but being a part of a certain religion I was never allowed to question them and was taught that it was all the devil and his helpers work. I now am a 25 year old woman and no longer believe that. I am on the path to figuring out who I am, and what I believe. But I know for sure that I do not believe that what I experienced was anything bad.

My first experience - I am not sure if it relates, but things picked up within a short time span after this encounter, so I will share it. I was roughly 6 years old at the time and was sharing a room with my mother. Her bed was propped against one side of the wall, and mine against the opposite. It was the middle of the night and my mum was fast asleep. I was far from alseep, just laying there. I was facing the wall, then turned to the opposite side facing my sleeping mother. What I saw will haunt me until I die. A little girl stared back at me, sitting down next to my mums bed. She emitted a soft glow, and was not a normal colour - she looked like she came straight out of a washed out black and white/old fashioned photo. She was dressed in clothing not of our time, and had beautiful long hair. She just sat and stared. Never moving. Never spoke. This happened in a fraction of a second. I turned away, hiding my face in the pillow. When I gained up enough courage to look back she was gone.

Shortly after that my dreams started. One was of my maternal grandmother, I knew it was her in the dream but her face and body was different. She was a different person in the dream. I was a different person in the dream, but knew this person represented me. We were in a foreign country, in heavy snow, heavy clothing. We were in trouble with no shelter. In the dream I was dying, and she was holding me but couldn't do anything beyond that. The rest of the dream is fuzzy, but I assume I died. I then remember waking up and telling my mother about this dream I had of me and grandma, a dream about our past life together. The reason I bring this dream up is because as I mentioned previously, things like past lives and fortune telling were frowned upon in our family. No one taught me about them, or spoke of anything to do with these topics. How did such a young child know about something like this?

That was the only dream I had of that sort.

The next dream I had as a prepubescent child was of our then male neighbour. In the dream I saw him kissing my mother. I woke up in panic, but eventually forgot. What happened in the follwing year went something like this... My parents divorced, we moved out and my mother ended up having a relationship with our old (now my single fathers) neighbour. He would come over every night, and one night I woke up and busted them kissing on on the couch.

Over the years I grew up to be a very depressed teen, struggling with my emotions. I have had encounters with bad entities over the years. One in particular hung around for a long time.

The dreams have always stuck around. Usually they are warning dreams. As a teen I also developed another sense. I would feel a sense of dread, sometimes for weeks, before a bad event would unknowingly happen.

I feel like a sponge to peoples emotions. I soak them up. I feel what they're feeling. It overwhelms me at times, because I feel like I have built up so much excess emotions over the years and don't know how to get rid of them. It makes me feel toxic within myself.

Can anyone help me. Help me understand everything clearly, and what is going on. I don't know where to start.

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PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-18)
It is normal to see the future or the past in the dream scape.

To strengthen use meditation or prayer exercise is good, allow yourself to recharge. Make notes upon awakening.

Before sleep tell yourself you. Will remember.
MrE (1 stories) (168 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-18)
+1 Anima, very well said.

For me, I've had to be very selective about who I have around me in my live.

Even though I have some decent people, they are still VERY draining to me.
These are people that I would trust with my life.

They just don't understand how their subconcious affects others around them.

One issue I keep running into as a empath is that I have becomevery goodat channeling the energy to go through me... Which creates a problem in that, when I channel, I always focus the energy to take a path that is best for life, the universe, and everything.

So, often times before I even realize it, I find myself getting involved in complex situations and doing complex work to get other people to "better" positons in their lives.

It's exhausting, but fulfilling at the same time.

If, as a empath, you are able to keep yourself balanced well enough, spirits and guides from other people start approaching you more often to do stuff for whoever it is that they happen to be with at that moment.

It's always a delicate balance, when you are being bombarded with energy that you are trying to work with on a spiritual level, whilst the person has no idea what is happening on the mental/physical level.

Just keep working on your meditation techniques and balance your emotions, that's the hardest task.

I do have three techniques in my profile that are considered the basics.
Anima (2 stories) (16 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-17)
Empaths are quite powerful, I will say that being one is both a curse and blessing in its own right. When you around the right people, being an Empath is a beautiful experience that allows you to have a deep and profound connection to others around you.

However, like every coin, there is a flip side and the negative emotions you feel from others constitutes to your own emotional anxieties and such as well. Empaths are so capable in their readings of others, that many tend to over-load, they stress their psyches to the point of falling apart.

Be careful of subconscious energies, feelings and thoughts that you receive from others. Most of the time these will feel very subtle and if you are unskilled in the way of the Empath or simply ignorant of it, you can mistake their emotions for your own, their feelings as well, and eventually misconstrue your inner-self in the process. This happened to me, though I will not blame them, they surely did have an effect in my psychotic breakdown I had a year or two ago.

What one must understand is that not all the feelings that reach you are of your own. Question them, become an internal and eternal critic when it comes to your nature as an individual, and know that your energy can effect others just as much as their own can effect yourself.

If anything learn to find sanctuary in yourself, if this means by hobbies or other things that reveal the true you beneath the clouds of other's feelings and subconscious energies. Inside everyone there is an eternal 'I' that no matter what others may convince you is you, remains pure by the will of the creator as your Purest Self. It is always there, and it always loves you.

I wouldn't worry about find answers, in time that will come to you. You can never see quite clearly in this world as there is no such thing as black and white, more like endless shades of grey's that obscure the truth to reality. Duality isn't what it is, trust me.

If you have any more questions, please feel free to ask.

May your road lead to fulfillment in both the shadow and the light.

- Anima
MrE (1 stories) (168 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-17)
As for turning off empathy towards people that aren't so nice...

When you come across someone like that, find sometime somewhere to do the exercises that PathR mentioned, or other forms of balancing meditations.

Then focus on the connection where the not so nice person is connected at.

Slowly unhook it from yourself. Don't yank it or cut it, unhook it.
Tie off the connection and put it back in the person it came from. If you don't tie it off, it'll leak energy from the other person. It's simply not polite.

Then, where is was connected to you, tie it off, and focus on healing your aura in that area.

If anxiety if stilla issue after that, focus all the anxiety into your gut, then visiualize it as a mushy black mass.
Visualize grabbing it with your hands and pulling it all out of your gut.

Then go for a walk or a jog, if it's feasible.

Beyond that, it would take a massive restructuring in thought processes that would take years to do to make it to where you have more control.

Hope that helps, and God bless.
noirheart (1 stories) (2 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-17)
What about the dreams I have about future related events or warnings? Thank you all very much. I will google all the terms you have all used and do some research. Is there any way of strengthening my dream ability? Or a way of turning off my empathy towards people who aren't so nice?
PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-17)
See a family member plus yourself in a different county is a previous incarnation.
PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-15)
You sound like an empathy.
Good practices is yoga nidra has exercises which help balance the brain, plus teaches the conscious mind to be an observer. If this resonates with you, then you can proceed further to bring up wounds and shadow parts of the psyche.

An Empathy at a minute um should practice breath work or mental exercises which crate space between them self and other human beings, this will help to create boarders.

Looking as shielding balancing and quiet
Time will also help.

AnneV has an article for Empathy.
noirheart (1 stories) (2 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-15)
Hi! The religion I belonged to was not Christianity, so I don't know much in regards to it's teachings.
PsychicJR (8 stories) (541 posts)
10 years ago (2014-05-15)
Absorbing peoples emotions is being an empath and I see spirits too and I seen a spirit girl like you said but she was wearing a night gown
But most people think the unknown is evil in the bilble it says real psychics are real and psychics are how wewere ssupposed to be but sin entered our lifes (how do you think the humans and the animals talk to each other (Adam And Eve))

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