I've never seen my ability before, not in anyone or any other psychic I have met. I know that finding others who can somehow do this will be difficult but as a last resort I have come here for help. My ability is to be able to tell the time of people's death I can't give exact dates of people's deaths but I know what age they will die. It really scares me because I've had occurrences where my ability did not fail me.
Every time I thought about my cousin the number 23 would hit me. I didn't understand until a few years ago when he met his death at age 23. I also had the same thing happen with a few other family members where another haunting number came to me every time I even looked at them. I fear because I don't know if I should tell anyone of this ugly side of my ability. I'm worried that if I do tell someone that will upset the balance of nature... I even have seen the year my parents will meet there deaths and I feel sick. I don't want to see that. Over the years my psychic ability has become stronger, but now I feel like I'm too powerful and I can't help it. I don't know who else to tell in fear that I will ward others away from me. I feel like the Grim Reaper, who just watches a soul count down. I don't want to know people die and I could've maybe been the one to prevent it.
This is a far stretch but I want to know if anyone else has the ability to do this. If not, am I just too strong of a psychic and is there any way to tone it down or harness this? I don't choose to see the number. I'll explain how it comes to me. It's like you first meet someone and you take notice to the fact that they have brown hair. It just hits me. I understand that what I'm saying sounds crazy and I feel like this is crazy too but can anyone offer advice or thoughts to my ability?