I have familiar that protects me. His name is Neko and his original form is a black cat but often changes into a human form. I know this next thing I am about to say sounds outrageous but is it possible that he could've been my long lost love?
I talk to him often and he says how we were in love or how much he misses me. He told me he would be with me for eternity. I have lived past lives and everyone I remember being with him. One was back in Italy where I bent down was stroking a black cat, the cat came everywhere with me.
Another occasion was when I died. I specifically remember Neko standing over me, this time as a very handsome man. He wasn't the one to kill me but he said "finally we may be together again." I don't know what any of this means I'm beyond confused.
The third occasion was a time I would guess was in the eighteen hundreds, yet another life I lived. This one I was at a fancy ball and Neko was at my side, dressed rather formally while I wore a beautiful red dress. He bent down and kissed my hand.
The fourth was one time where I believe we were having sex. I could see the silhouettes of our bodies and everything. I don't understand. He tells me he will reunite with me again, he promised me that. Every life I lived he's told me that he was able to be in the physical world with me. Right now he's here with me in spirit but if I'm upset he consoles me, if I'm worried he's there. He's always been there. Every night and day I think about Neko, I always mourn for him to come back to me. Sometimes I even cry, I just don't understand it. Am I in love with a spirit? It's even restrained me from relationships. I know people say don't get caught up in your past. I believe we lived in the afterlife or whatever comes after this life together. He's told me that living a human life is short in comparison to the time we'll be away from each other.
There were other instances that I remember us together. I don't know if it was here on in the afterlife. To be honest I'm just so confused...
Help me. Does anyone have the same situation or has any advice? I know this sounds fantasized but I swear to god that this is all real.
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