I need some advice, ever since I was a little girl I new there was something different about me. I would get sleep paralysis every night as a child, I would be terrified when my mother turned off my bedroom lights and closed my door, I would lie awake waiting for the 'man' to come and sit at the end of my bed, like he did every night. I would feel my bed dip, the weight of a person perching at the bottom of my bed, the same place every night. I'd freeze with fright, to scared to move a muscle, after a while I'd grow the courage to look, there was never anything there but I could feel something, physically and emotionally.
As time went on I learn't that I could sense peoples emotions, it's a horrible thing, knowing what the person your engaging with thinks of you. I also felt like I could sense spirits, I'd have a feeling that I can't explain come over me and I'd feel that something or someone was there. Adding on to my weirdness I also had psychic tendencies, I'd know things before they happened but it was always on boring unimportant things, irrelevant matters. During the years though it's grown and I've been able to predict a lot, including my own fathers death.
That's my background, the reason i'm writing this is because since my fathers passing, me and my mother has been going to psychics, they each tell me I have a gift and I laugh it off in front of my mother. The last time though was different, the medium performed reiki on me, as she predicted I could sense spirits and this was effecting me sleeping.
Since she did this I've begin to see things, white and black spots fly past me, I see a white outline of half a body casually walking past me. Am I going mad? Should I go to my doctor? I've never heard of reiki making people see things?
To be honest with you, I hate it all. People say it's a gift, but I don't see it. I've been known as odd all my life, the girl who hides away in her bedroom. If I don't spend at least two days alone a week I go insane, I can't sleep at night my head races and I get hyper. I hate knowing what people are feeling, when I'm with my friends and I can feel they are irritated or bored. When I'm with a guy and I Know he likes me, just makes me feel awkward.
Does anyone else have these? I've read a few stories on this site but they've always been based on one of these abilities never them all?
Or am I just literally crazy?