Since I was a little girl I saw spirits and ghosts often. I remember seeing a woman in an old Victorian dress in my grandparents house and I could feel it when she sat at the foot of my bed. It was terrifying for me for a long time. As I got older my grandparents eventually told me a story about how we were passing by a house one day on the way to lunch when I was four and I began screaming and crying and said it felt evil there. They looked at each other in amazement because a boy had tied his family up and burned them alive earlier that week. I also used to find four leaf clovers easy. My family would be looking for days and I'd walk right up to one. I was diagnosed with ADD/ADHD and was medicated but I was taken off because the medication did nothing for me.
One year we took a trip to Idaho and drove from Texas. I always had this obsession with streams and running water and I would make them stop every time we passed one so I could get out and touch it. I read somewhere that ghosts or evil spirits couldn't pass running water or something similar but am not sure how valid that is. Also I had this vision as a child that I was in my crib and gods hands picked me up. About 6 months ago I asked my mother about this and she said that when I was about three and my sister was one, I had tried telling her about her getting picked up by gods hands and I thought that was interesting because I had always remembered it of myself. When I was about ten I was in bed and looked out of the window and there was some kind of creature with bright glowing red eyes about the height of a person and it terrified me. Another time I had been laying with my covers off my legs and a two legged creature I believe was a demon jumped off of my leg, scratched me and left red claw marks and I heard it run across the wood floor. I have had many instances of sleep paralysis.
Most of all I have been called an old soul, by anyone I encounter, all my life. I have been told I am an oracle and an indigo child as well. Also I got a reading one time and I was told that a family would come to me to help them find their missing daughter and I would bring them closure. This really terrifies me but within the last 6 months I've been embracing my abilities and practicing not being scared when something is going on with spirits. Part of the reason is because, there was a man I was around who I think practiced witchcraft and wasn't really a good person. My mother is a somewhat weak minded individual and one day he told me that he was scared or intimidated by me because I didn't realize how powerful I was. I thought he was bluffing until I think he tried to have something happen to me spiritually and in a way it reflected off of me and my mom I think became possessed. In a nutshell she ended up in a psych ward and the emergency room and I asked for guidance from a friend and she said that she was possessed and there was nothing she could do for her. Anyway I really just need some feedback on some of this... I have been practicing meditation and asking for help from my spirit guides and lots of prayer. Maybe someone has some insight on which direction to take as far as studying or research online? Thanks.