I remember my first encounters with other entities first happening when I was four. I was locked in a bathroom and I heard a benevolent female voice asking me if I "believed", whatever that meant. I was confused and thought it was my aunt, but apparently she was at the store, because a long time later she arrived home and unlocked the door for me. At that point in my life, I saw dark creatures regularly. They were shadows independent of a source, standing bulky and at the foot of my mom's bed, or slender and dog-eared, hanging upside down from the ceiling in the hallway. They always had these red eyes.
And all of my life I've dreamed things before they happened, but after maybe the age of 7 or 8, I stopped seeing those entities. Now I'm a seventeen year old guy, still dreaming things before they happen pretty regularly. But there's been something else...
2014 seemed to be a year of awakening for me in some way. I started to feel presences of other beings, both evil and good. The evil ones put off a fear that was practically crippling. The good ones were always domineering and had an agenda. My nighttime experiences were odd too. After an anxious upheaval I had (I had actually predicted a car accident, and the same night close friends of mine were in an accident, so I was really ripped up about it) I began to have strange nighttime experiences. I would go into some kind of trance before falling asleep, and I would see things and feel things and hear things. Sometimes I felt something brushing my foot. Other times I saw people behind my eyelids.
As if all that wasn't weird enough, I started junior year of high school. Many of my religious beliefs and conceptions about reality and life started to take a beating that, ultimately, they didn't survive. I started experiencing a lot of relationship issues (I'm extremely emotional, and it seems I'm becoming way more expressive of it now than I was before). After facing rejection from a certain girl, I became unhinged. For about a week I was up and down, crying, raging, happy, peaceful, sluggish, apathetic, etc.
I'm not asking for psychological help, trust me. I'm getting to the point.
I met a guy shortly after who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia. Inside, I was fascinated. I've always been drawn to selective and supernatural perception, or at the very least, hearing and seeing things that other people don't. Eventually, as I practiced meditation, I began to hear whispering.
That was last November.
Now, I'm hearing them louder. Sometimes they are voices, but mostly loud whispering. It isn't constant, every second. It's sporadic throughout the day, like they're trying to get my attention, whoever "they" are. I also see things rather frequently, always in flashes or unclear forms, but sometimes the forms are very clear and I mistake them for people, and others around me don't see them.
Also, I have some kind of telepathic voices that only visit me when I lie down. I don't even have to be sleepy, sleeping, or even intend on sleeping. I just start to get all these different people, ages, genders, talking into my mind with their thoughts, and the things are totally irrelevant to me (usually).
My question is, how do I allow this to grow? I know I'm perceiving a lot of things, both good and bad at times, but mostly just mysterious. And I want that to grow into something greater. Any suggestions?