just recently, I have done some short google searches to try and find ways to hone in on what I believe to be a gift I have had for a long time, but it just now at age 22, being really brought to the surface.
For my whole life I would say I could pick up on what people where feeling. Not by obvious signs, or confusion with my own feelings. (what I think most people experience. "OH NO! I have SOOOO many feels and it's just so intense, I must be picking up everyone's feelings..." NO!)
I somehow would just know what the person is feeling, without really realizing it I think. Thinking back I have always been the type to analyze people because I felt like somehow I just KNEW what was going through their minds... Before, I just assumed it was because I had been through so much. That I could pretty much figure someone out based off my own feelings and experiences.
Well, just recently. I got a really bad infection in the cartilage of my rib-cage. (really painfull, it's been over two months and there is still pain/inflammation. Although, the infection is taken care of.)
My mother recommended that I go to see this lady who does acupuncture.
If you know me at all you would know, I am VERY skeptical of these kinds of things!
But, she insisted this woman healed a chronic shoulder pain she had been having for months, in just 3 sessions. And also, offered to pay for my sessions. So, I figured, it can't hurt right?
So, every session there would be probably somewhere around 10 needles right dead center in my chest.
Recently, I have noticed the emotions that come in aren't really like hunches or some kind of crazy coincidence.
But it's like I can hear it, and unlike what most people seem to say. It's the positive emotions I pick up on the most.
One night, I suddenly felt just overwhelmingly good and kind hearted. I started calling old friends and people I have not talked to in years... And told them how in some small way, made an impact on my life and I was straight up telling these people I LOVED THEM! Not a normal thing for me to be doing!
Also, recently, I have noticed A LOT of attention from the women. Now being age 22, this is kind of expected. But I have been taken for 5 years. And most of the women I know, realize there is no way I would leave the love of my life for any of them.
But regardless, I have had 5 women in the last 2 months straight forward either confess their undying love/lust over me. And many others just being a lot more friendly than others. (and I can sort of hear their affection for me.)
All of these positive emotions make me feel really great, the negative ones it's more like I just hear them whisper into my ear. And then I know what's going on with them. Not just "depression" or "fear" or whatever else... But much more detailed.
People also seem to just open up to me like nothing, people I barely know. Just open up about really deep down, even dark and very personal information.
I also feel a really strong connection to all these people.
And now here is a curve ball, my dad (age 56) is a very gifted psychic. He has been developing his multiple talents for over 30 years!
He does energy work, astral projection. I would even go as far to say mind reading! I have always been skeptical of my dad and his stories. But there have been a few occasions where he had me astonished at what he knew about what I was doing and how he knew it.
With this in mind, he thinks without a doubt that the acupuncture opened my heart center, to an even greater degree than it already was, and in combination with 22 years around my own father's energies has helped me develop this gift. But, here comes another curve ball.
I have been having VERY vivid dreams lately! Like who entire experiences in worlds that are CLEARLY not normal, but I when I am there. It's like I know the places very well and sometimes, I don't get a good feeling about these places. And it seems like some of the people I know. (family and friends) are just not acting like themselves and "empathically" don't "feel" the same
ALL OF THIS SINCE THE END OF DECEMBER! I am not even quite sure how to take it all in. But I almost feel powerful. Like all these people gathering to me, and how much I can know about them based off of feelings is just blowing me away. If anything, I don't think I would have problems with my emotions running away from me and getting out of control. But rather, develop some kind of a God-complex because I just feel so out of control powerful, and influencing over people.
Now, I am not the type of person to take advantage of anyone. But I guess that's my way of "painting a picture with words". I am pretty grounded and don't think that is likely for me.
But, I have seen other people read books about astral projection or energy work. And then short months later, hear them talking about how they are jesus and have some sort of crazy agenda to save people. I can think of 2 different people myself.
Does anyone share any of this craziness with me?
Or is this website just full of pubescent teenage girls with an over-active imagination.
I am sorry to say, but if all you have is "a lot of feelings". Well, I don't think you have a gift. You are just unstable and have an overactive imagination.
Same goes for the people who find themselves feeling "suddenly upset" when someone else feels the same.
GUESS AGAIN! Hahahah
That is also, VERY common! And again, not a gift. Just human nature. If I storm into a room having a bad day feeling pissed off, I can tell you I will not be the only one. Same goes for any other kind of emotion. It just depends on the individual with the most presence that day.
Of course, that's just my opinion. You could, I guess have a "gift" of some kind. I think all people are psychic on some level. But if everyone has what you have. It's just human nature, still.
So concludes the final chapter of my novel, I don't know if there is any connection. But also in recent time. I find myself with my thoughts racing at paces I thought where not possible before, all just profound thoughts about life and humanity. And sometimes, it makes it impossible for me to fall asleep, for example right now. It is 8:34 AM and I have not fallen asleep in over 24 hours. I usually wake up at six AM.
Anyone out there?