I'm sorry if this isn't exactly what I'm suppose to write, but I'm new to this site and I've been a bit concerned if it's that I'm just scared or something else
Anyways, I've always hated dead silence, especially when it's pitch black, and I don't know, but when it's dead silent and dark, I feel as if someone is watching me and my heart rate rises, my eyes feel as if they're closed but I can still see and I get headaches and hear foot steps and sometimes feel as if Someone is trying to choke me and I immeadiatly try to have light and normal sound such as music play.
I've been kind of depressed also, I'm not sure if it has much to do with it but yah, I sometimes write poems that seem to make no sense and no one would ever think of and random nonsense and destruction, kind of like I'm bipolar but I'm not sure doesn't exactly feel like that. One of my poems involved how as I always say life isn't real and we are all just living our life again and again unknowingly, and that's why we have déjà vu moments in our lives
Recently I've also been feeling as if someone is trying to dunk my head into water and drown me when in class sitting there or just sitting at home, it doesn't effect me too too much, like I don't choke or stop breathing or anything but like just the feeling when you head has been dunked into a
Pool or something, I'm not sure if there's something wrong with me or this is something physical or what is happening but if I could have anyone give advice that would help a lot. Thanks.