Last night was a normal night for me, I was just laying in my bed and watching YouTube on my phone. I decided to go get my drawing notebook and draw since I was bored but that's when it all turned around
I started shaking and I felt like I was only slightly in control of my body at this point. I flipped to an empty page in my notebook and wrote "let me out!" Neatly at the top left coroner then I wrote it again and again each time faster and sloppier than the last and it got to a point where I wasn't under any control of myself and started crying. I ripped the paper with the pencil and then started to get in a Fetal position with my arms hugging my head rocking back and forth saying "let me out let me out let me out" and crying for a good 5-10 minuets then I decided If I went to sleep It might stop. I took a bit of control of my body back and laid back down in bed and closed my eyes but then I unconsciously tried breaking my arm and leg off and then scratched my arm until it bled.
Finally I got to sleep and I did have a dream and there was a figure that was in a cage screaming to let it out over and over but I didn't want anymore of that craziness to happen so I told it "no! Wait! It'll be okay!" Which is also what I said trying to make the thing go away earlier and it worked and I slept without any interruptions after that.
I don't know, like forever I've had this thing where I wanted to be free but I didn't understand it never felt like me wanting it But this is the first time anything like that had happened before.