My very first love Shane died suddenly of an asthma attack at age 31. He was married with four children. We still live in the same town but I never saw him. His death hit me lit a ton of bricks although I am married to a man I love.
I never go to funerals because I have quite enough contact with death and the recently dead.
Because of my abilities I was puzzled by why Shane had not come to me at all - this is rare, especially if I know the person.
Weeks passed and he had not come but I could not shake the sadness of his death. Every time I passed somewhere that we went or heard some song we liked or at any random time I would get an overwhelming sense of confusion and uncertainty and incompleteness. But he never came.
I dreamed of his parents and his house, especially his mother but he was already dead in the dreams.
(By the way, the week before he died. I talked all day to a co-worker about him and I didn't know why. Sometimes I ignore my abilities.)
Suddenly, he came to me last week. Three nights in a row. And I have never felt such anger from a spirit before. Usually they contact me to say that everything is fine. (My cousin Demetris who died from cancer in 2006 was absolutely overjoyed when he came - literally a child.) But Shane is always mad, he is saying something that I cannot understand. I do know that he is damn right mad. I want to help him, but I'm not sure how. At this point I can't go to his mother and say "I've talked to Shane and he's pretty pissed off..." I feel him everywhere now. I am compelled to drive past his house often.
Yesterday, I detoured to a grocery store and his truck was in the parking lot. One of his daughters graduated from kindergarten, it was written on the truck but I didn't see them in the store.
I intended to try some lucid dreaming and just to ask him what he wanted me to do. But I think I've concentrated to much consciously on this and I haven't been able to. If anyone else has had this problem and has advice please let me know. This is the longest I have ever gone without a resolution. This is the first angry spirit that succeeded in contacting me.
I see them and feel them sometimes but I don't seem to have much strength when so much anger is involved.
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Okay, learned something very new yesterday. Immediately brought me back to your story. I've been talking to someone in the paranormal whom has a lot of knowledge on this type of thing. With your sadness you are feeling towards your ex you may somehow be pulling him in to you. You questioned the anger. Evidently he is angry because you won't let him go. Somehow you are pulling him to you because of your hurt. He is angry because he has already passed over and truely does not want to be here anymore. Some way and some how you are going to have to let him go and let him rest, if this is still a problem. Good luck.