My very first love Shane died suddenly of an asthma attack at age 31. He was married with four children. We still live in the same town but I never saw him. His death hit me lit a ton of bricks although I am married to a man I love.
I never go to funerals because I have quite enough contact with death and the recently dead.
Because of my abilities I was puzzled by why Shane had not come to me at all - this is rare, especially if I know the person.
Weeks passed and he had not come but I could not shake the sadness of his death. Every time I passed somewhere that we went or heard some song we liked or at any random time I would get an overwhelming sense of confusion and uncertainty and incompleteness. But he never came.
I dreamed of his parents and his house, especially his mother but he was already dead in the dreams.
(By the way, the week before he died. I talked all day to a co-worker about him and I didn't know why. Sometimes I ignore my abilities.)
Suddenly, he came to me last week. Three nights in a row. And I have never felt such anger from a spirit before. Usually they contact me to say that everything is fine. (My cousin Demetris who died from cancer in 2006 was absolutely overjoyed when he came - literally a child.) But Shane is always mad, he is saying something that I cannot understand. I do know that he is damn right mad. I want to help him, but I'm not sure how. At this point I can't go to his mother and say "I've talked to Shane and he's pretty pissed off..." I feel him everywhere now. I am compelled to drive past his house often.
Yesterday, I detoured to a grocery store and his truck was in the parking lot. One of his daughters graduated from kindergarten, it was written on the truck but I didn't see them in the store.
I intended to try some lucid dreaming and just to ask him what he wanted me to do. But I think I've concentrated to much consciously on this and I haven't been able to. If anyone else has had this problem and has advice please let me know. This is the longest I have ever gone without a resolution. This is the first angry spirit that succeeded in contacting me.
I see them and feel them sometimes but I don't seem to have much strength when so much anger is involved.