I have a series of possible abilities but I'm in such doubt about what I am and I was hoping to get some help from you all.
Let's start with the beginning.
The first psychic experience happened when I was 15 years old. I was on a school trip and on one of our last nights there I suddenly had a feeling that I should say something. Something important that had to be told. I thought I was going insane offcourse, so I supressed that feeling. Until one moment the nagging feeling in my stomach was so strong I had no choice but to give in to it. I was vaguely aware of the things I was doing but it felt more like I was being controlled or something, I knew I was the one grabbing my classmate's arm and telling her "be aware, tomorrow something is going to happen, I don't know what but I do know the teachers are going to tell us that we'll get back home with a bus and our bikes will be picked up and delivered back at school." (we were on a trip with our bikes) and I remember letting her go and walking away. That moment, grabbing her and telling her, I remember vaguely like it was me but it wasn't.
And so it happened that a classmate woke me in the middle of the night and everybody was sick. They were puking, running to the bathroom back and forth, this went on until the morning and that day we drove home by bus and our bikes got delivered at the school in two vans, later we found out we were struck by some kind of virus that lived in the environment. My psychic powers awakened since then.
Since that day I have been experiencing "symptoms" of trance mediumship, clairvoyance, "knowing" stuff without a clue how I know them. Aura seeing, sensing entities,premonitions, ridiculous rates of deja vu, voices in my head from people surrounding me, telepathic links with people I'm emotionally very close with, smelling things that are completely out of place (eg: A few weeks ago I was smoking and I smelled my sweater to see if the sent had sinken in because it was fresh washed and all that and I don't know how I knew, but I smelled a friend of mine and a few hours later he showed up at my doorstep asking if I could come out to talk) I even had a few visions when I was fully awake...
I'm so confused and I have a strong feeling that all these experiences I had are just a "sneak peek" of them, that there is a whole lot more to know about them. Can somebody please help me to understand more about these gifts and how to train and use them. I meditate a lot after doing a few years of research. But I know I'm not there yet.
All help is welcome! And thanks in advance!