I'm new to this forum; I want to say English is not my first language, so I apologize if I have some grammar mistakes.
I'm really terrified of my own thoughts, I think weird stuff and it happens, sometimes are good things and in the majority of cases are bad things, for example, I wanted to write a letter for my grandfather telling that I was sorry for not spend as much time with him, and also that I was so grateful with him, one day I thought "write the letter because he is going to die soon", but I didn't listen to my thoughts, two weeks later my grandfather died, in another occasion my friend was telling me that his grandmother was sick, so again I thought she is going to die and weeks later she died. It also happened with my friend's dog I was taking I walk with his dog, I look at the dog and it thought is going to die soon and a week later she died. These are just some examples I have way more stories to tell. I'm scared because I think the die because of me.
Also I don't know how but I know when I'm going to lose something, for example I was going out so I thought "I better take out my ID out the wallet because I'm going to lose my wallet tonight' I lose my wallet that night, but is weird because I feel that sometimes are not my own thoughts, is like someone is warning me, I also think something is going to happen on that day and it happens hours later, or for example I think in someone and they call or I ran into them that day.
I can feel people emotions, I know when they are sad or they feel envy or sometimes I know what they are thinking or what are they going to say, I don't really know if that is because I know them to well or is because I'm an empath. I need help I don't want to hurt anyone, I don't want more people dying because of my thoughts, I just need a little guidance on how to handle this situation, please help me, I feel something is wrong with me .