Trying To Understand And That Is Why I'm Here

I have experienced the same thing about predicting what song is going to play (whether I sing it first or it plays in my mind) before turning on the radio. Predict a Car accident right in front of me and how I always push the brake early before it happened. But the most strange thing that happened to me was how I able to feel the other unseen "figure" and I can sense them by the energy wave. It happened on the day that my lovely grandma passed away. I was helping my grandma to the toilet, I was just standing there and wait for my grandma and all of a sudden, I looked to my right and I felt this strong and a very heavy wave getting closer to me and it suffocated me as it tried to passed by me. I don't know what it was but my grandma suddenly having an asthma attack and several minutes later she passed away after my father came and hold her. I was shocked and I cried for 3 days non-stop. I still can feel the wave and the energy of that "thing". And around few years later, it visited my work place at the hospital and I can feel the energy but the wave wasn't that heavy like before, I just stood there while wave passes by. A few minutes later, an old man died. The doctors couldn't save that man even after performing two men CPR. Maybe I said something while standing there about its useless to save that man, that he will die anyway and he did died. I don't feel anything afterwards, I just continue doing my work. Sometimes this kind of thing really make me speechless. I always know when people are lying to me. Sometimes I communicate with the earth. The earth is exhausted. I caught other's feeling, and it wears me down. Sometimes I try to focus on developing but I'm too scared that I'm might be too open to negative energy. I don't have to try to understand their feelings because I do understand. I can tune in what they were feeling. My dreams are never black and white. My dreams are always colorful. Sometimes I can control my dream, and I can feel love and hatred and feeling lost in my dream. Only once I have a continuing dream. And it was meaningless and only based on feeling. There are lots more. I always remember my every lucid and vivid dream, every feeling and every piece of it. And some of it came true. If I don't know how to use some stuff, I dreamt about it later on how to use it. I woke up and use the stuff. Sometimes I touched thing and I know its bad thing. I could go on about what I experienced. Sometimes I think, maybe its just a coincident or i'm being delusional. Until now, I still try to figure out if I'm a psychic... (Sorry if my grammar/spelling is not accurate).