My life has been a whirl-pool, when I was 5 years old, I predicted that my best friend in the world was dead, I found out the next morning that she had passed away in her sleep from spinal meningitis.
When I was 8 Years old, I predicted that my friends father had died, and I found out the next morning in school, I found out that he had cancer throughout his lungs and had coughed up a lot of tar and choked to death.
When I was 10 years old, I woke at 5am, after wanting to sleep with my mom that night, because I had a bad feeling and I needed to be close to her.
I stood by the window, staring at the stars, I watched a star fall out of the sky, only to look at my mother and say "I'm so sorry mom," just after saying it, the phone rang and it was my aunt telling my mother, that my Grandmother had passed away minutes before.
Between the ages of 10 and 18, I would see people running along side of the car, and point them out to whoever was in the car, only to find out that I was the only one seeing these people, they would soon fade away and we would keep on driving, and I would look out the window to see a cross and some flowers on the side of the road, where someone had gotten killed.
At times while driving in the car with my sister, or another family member or friend, I would predict something bad was going to happen, and then we would either see a car accident with people seriously injured or worse... dead.
At times I have felt something bad was going to happen and then an ambulance would drive past, a fire truck or even a police car.
I have felt in my heart and even have woken up to the feeling of death, and have had my family receive numerous phone calls of a death in a family.
When I was 19 years old I woke up one January Morning around 4:30am, and felt that my friend was going to pass away, I prayed to God, to keep him strong, and after praying for hours, I got the phone call, and at 6:12am that he had passed away.
A few days ago, I had thought of my aunt Heather 3 hours before she had passed away,
The night before I looked at my boyfriend while we were in bed, and told him that someone close and a stranger would die tomorrow.
My mom got the phone call that someone on her charge had passed away, later that night I had strong feelings of my Aunt Heather, and talked a lot about when her grandchild Jordan was born, and how my father had baptized him, how Heather was not really my aunt, but a close friend for 35-40 years, and how she introduced my parents, happily married today...
About 2 minutes before receiving the phone call that she had passed away at the young age of 59, from brain cancer she had just been diagnosed with 6 months before...
I had strong thoughts of her, and how death was starting to scare me, I even had a few tears escape my eyes...
I sat there, and thought about when my sister and I were children, how we would hang out with Heathers three girls, and how much my mother loved her like a sister, Aunt Heather...
She passed away May 28, 2008 at 12:30am, another prediction... When I was 15 years old, I remember being home alone one night, to find my best friend who had passed away when we were only 5, playing with her little brother in my backyard, strange though, even though it looked like them, they were wearing clothes from the 1800's, which did not make sense to me, but frightened me so much, that my parents came home, my father searched the snow for footprints, only to tell me that I imagined it...
A few weeks after turning 19 years old, I started feeling the presence of a young women in my bedroom, she watched me sleep every night, and I eventually told my mother, who told me that it was my Guardian Angel, which frightened me.
About a year ago, I was watching a show about a young women, who was watching this other teen sleep, only she was talking to this teen and waking her up, when they finally showed the sketch of this girl, I kept saying to myself, I have seen this young women before? But where?
I then realized, that this was the same girl who had watched me fall asleep, I finished watching the show, I soon learned that the girl was a young run away, and was murdered by a stranger, this had me feeling really sad for the longest time, but how was it that I seen the same girl as a psychic... and am I psychic?
I really truly need answers, I freaked my family out as a child and teenager, I'm now 23 years old, and it never gets easy, I'm predicting more then ever, and I'm not sure how to handle this, is it a gift, can I study it some how and maybe help people with it?
Could someone please, please help me discover what is wrong with me...
Am I crazy?
My parents started getting me counseling, when I first had visions, or predictions, and with a lot of doctors, they all have said that I suffer from depression.
Which, mind you, if I turned the tables on them, I bet I could come up with some pretty interesting diagnoses for some of those doctors out there!
So please help me... Because I'm lost...