I don't want to say that it was "evil" or "bad" - I did not feel threatened, just shocked.
I had just woken up from a nap (not really sure if long/short now) and when I opened my eyes, I saw this (what I wanted to call an orb, but mist might be the better word for it?) thing floating just about where the back of my head normally is when I am at my computer.
In the months leading up to this point, I have been doing a load of spiritual seeking - to keep it light on the backstory; I don't particularly have one view or another - and I am willing to listen to other perspectives/belief systems. At any rate - I canceled my "spiritual contracts" - in order to start anew.
For a time (long enough that it was noticeable) I was receiving unwarranted "attacks" from people I had never had problems with in the past; nor had they been given any reasons to be "aggressively nasty" towards me. So I thought, it's something else that at some point in my life (or lives) I've opened myself up to and I'm talking about unknowable knowledge type stuff. Random thoughts or venting I have done only in my mind are translated through these people. So, in that respect - I suppose I have labeled it as "bad" or at the very least "negative" entity working through people who are "disconnected" from spirit/source/whatever you'd like to call it.
So this is what has been going on. Once I realized that fear had no hold in my life - and I acknowledged the "attacks" for what they were and stated clearly I KNEW what it was - they ceased. Onward.
I wake up and I'm staring at this thing which looks like an angular, morphing smoky 3-D diamond shape. It is kind of like one of those decorative curtain rod end-caps that spirals/twists around from tip to tip expanding in the middle; so narrow top and bottom with "tendrils" floating throughout and it's in a constant state of movement; but a bit more complicated than the basic rod end-cap. It was wispy, but with a definite "angular" shape - it never ceased movement; so it did not appear to have just ONE shape. Now, I'm "shocked" (for lack of a better word) at this point - but I am not fearful of it. I sit up and look at it. And I *felt* as though it were perfectly aware that I was looking at it; and in return it looking at me. It seemed to be there for quite some time - but time is linear and I'm not quite certain that I was "in time" (if that makes sense) - so I don't want to place a limit on it. But it was there long enough for me to question whether or not it was some oddity that I was experiencing from coming out of a nap - but that didn't even feel like what it was. Then, it just faded away still morphing/moving as it did.
If truth be told, I have had some strange "pressure" on my lower neck/head region - but nothing painful. Just "odd" for what is "normal" for myself. Meditating frequently; so it could be from energies my body has not been accustomed to. About two weeks ago, another friend (who has been on her own spiritual path of seeking) and I both (within twenty minutes of each other) felt this odd lightening/energy-without-the-pain rush of energy (something) that sort of shot up from my chest into my head. I felt nauseated, but again - I think it had more to do with the fact that it was an "abnormal feeling" for my body.
Last Thursday, I got out of bed and reached up to pull the switch on the ceiling light, but before I touched the pull-switch, the light started to light.
So - I'm either going cuckoo, making progress, or these "attacks" are finding new/inventive/sneaky ways of trying to "mess" with me.
At any rate, I have some photos that I found that "kind of" match up to my description, but I see there is really no way of posting those pics. I've searched around on the web quite a bit, but have yet to discover a story precisely like mine. I'm curious if anyone out in the world wide webs has any advice or information on this particular "thing". Any thoughts or similar stories? I would like to remain as "logical" as my openness in spirituality will allow me to be. If "it" is something negative - I would like to be made aware of that so that I can address "it" in a direct manner. Indirect doesn't seem to get me much of anywhere - but direct sure does! Lol Thank you in advance!
In a sense, yes. Although it doesn't happen all the time. I can say that I feel a huge detachment in general, but not detachment from empathy; just people and their constant need for over-attachment (if that makes sense).
Pressure in my head almost all the time.