After finding out that I'm a medium, I was really frightened and tried to hide my mediumship. I was also scared of dark because when it is dark, I feel like I could sense spirits.Sometimes,I wished my abilities would be taken away from me as I was tired of lying myself. But when I tried to lie myself, I was even more tired.It's like a nightmare sometimes. It made me tired, scared and sometimes even pains.
I suffered those pains for six months (as I discovered my mediumship lately) and I was lost and alone. There was no one to tell how I was experiencing because even if I tell someone, he or she would simply think I'm crazy.
Fortunately,I found a friend who had this ability and we became too close. We talked about our experiences and discussed. She was amazing! She had stronger signs of being a medium. For she doesn't scare spirits and her mediumship, she doesn't get tired with her ability.
I wanted to be like her and I started to realise that running away is not the way. We should learn how to control them. As soon as I realised that, I tried that way. I tried to overcome my fears as I need to develop my mediumship.
The next way us to keep faith in ourselves. As my main ability is Clairsentience, (I'm the best at sensing or knowing things rather than other) I try not to filter anything I gather but go with my sense. I try keeping faith in my ability and I also found it helped me to expand my mediumship.
I'm new here and I don't even know when I became a medium. The first time hearing ringings was seven years ago and the first time sensing a spirit was about two years ago.I'm not sure but sometimes I see a spirit in my house. I think it is four or five times. First time was a woman wearing a white dress (not sure). And another was a baby in my little brother's bed. (I was completely shocked that time). I have a feeling that my Clairvoyance may be just starting or it's just weak.
I've been experiencing those for half of my lifetime but I'm still stuck at some point. I hope someone can advice me what I should do to understand more about my mediumship.