My teen years started like most, rebellion, drugs, partying, and of course, playing with oujia boards, & satanic principles to some sweet screaming Disturbed. No I'm very much serious about this though. Rest assured my taste in music has improved. Lol
After a near death experience, my life changed completely, but that's a different story. I know I was meant to have this weird life, I consider myself blessed because of this, hopefully I can assist any one else struggling with possessions, negative energies, and the "dark side"
(Fyi, the dark side doesn't have cookies. It's a lie. They are all lies.)
I picked up many lower energies off the people I was around, from the activities I was doing, and the spirits I was openly inviting! (We thought summoning demons would be a good idea!)
I experienced hateful, cruel, and sadistic thoughts entering my mind out of the blue, which are very against my gentle & compassionate nature. I saw visions of "demons" in reflective surfaces (mirrors, plates, windows), and sometimes in my head or from the corner of my eyes, but the first time I suspected it as anything but my imagination was when one cursed out my mouth, which I found strange as it wasn't me. I was having full conversations with these beings (in my head or they could talk from my mouth), occasionally they pushed, shoved me or controlled my body against my will. When ever they were around I felt weak and depressed, sometimes so weak I collapsed against a wall or onto furniture.
I began to learn how to "tune" into positive energies, rather than the negative ones. They gave me great support, especially with helping me come to terms with what was happening. I knew that "in my right mind" I wanted the entities gone-they were getting more daring and I felt like I, and those around me could be in danger (impulses to suddenly strangle myself or self harm, seeing a knife and getting the desire to pick it up, seeing harming people I love in my mind).
I knew my core being-my true self-who I really am-Is someone who wants to be a worker of light. I do not want to be abusive, and I do not want to be abused. I was being abused and tormented by these spirits, they had more control over my life than I did, and that isn't ok. I decided I wanted my life back for myself, and I want to use my life to help people, not hurt them.
I knew overcoming my possessions was crucial to my life, and that it would only help me on my journey. This was very important, as being open in any way allowed negative energies to communicate with me.
My first experience of success was one time I was sitting in my room, a negative energy was telling me I was weak, worthless, miserable, Then a loving, positive voice in my head said to me,
"say you are strong."
At first I didn't want to, but I decided to give it a try. So I tried. It felt like throwing up, "I... I Am..."
I felt ridiculous, I could barely pass the first two words, it was sickening and painful,
"...I am strong."
I said it. A peace fell over me. The negative energy was gone.
I started practicing cutting lines, a negative energy will usually try to snag my attention by saying something very shocking or attention-grabbing.
Deep breath. Do not respond.
I realized occasionally they would stop if I ignored them long enough, and focused on something else. This worked sometimes, but usually the spirit would come back later. I started to get more comfortable commanding spirits to leave me, by asserting strongly "You must leave now! You are not welcome here and never return!" The more intensely I mean it and am serious about it the more effective it is, I have successfully banished two spirits completely this way.
One of the most effective methods is inviting assistance from positive beings. My most intense experience is when I was trying to sleep, but was being assaulted by an energy, I mentally asked for help, immediately there was a loving, warm/tingly presence, in my minds eye I witnessed a bright flash that forcefully pushed the entity far away, the heavy, nauseated feeling and pressure left and I slept peacefully. I often feel the presence of this same loving energy around me.
Finally, another really successful method was ripping/throwing out anything with ties to the energies. I am an artist and had drawn a picture of one of the beings, I could feel its energy very tied to the drawing. One day, I had finally decided to rid myself and ripped the drawing into many pieces, then threw it away. I was imediately relieved.
My advice to anyone struggling:
Your WILL POWER is very important and strong, negative entities are good at twisting your morals & thoughts, remember WHO YOU REALLY ARE without the negative influence, know that YOU have the POWER over yourself, You have the power to command them out/away from you, they CANNOT exist here without SOME energy source (energy, suffering, specific kind of expirience, communication, etc) so STOP feeding them. Ask your higher power to assist, and ASERT they are not welcome, and COMMAND them to leave. It is also important to prevent picking up new energies by cleansing your space/aura (smudging, meditation, etc) with the intention of protection & banishing energies.
If anyone else is having difficulty I will do my best to help you.