Let's chat about demons. I am aware this site isn't specifically for dreams, but I believe this goes beyond a dream, and dives into my ability to connect and speak with entities beyond the Physical Realm. I will explain myself in just a moment.
Firstly let me apologize, I haven't been on the site in a very long time. In the last couple of years I have taken it upon myself to explore my abilities more thoroughly. I have taken steps, and put myself in positions, in which I would have to rely on my abilities and therefore have to learn about them and grow with them.
Let me also say that I know absolutely nothing of demons. I don't know their names or what they're supposed to look like, the biblical story about them or any other mythology regarding their existence. The only experience that I have is real life experience, where I have had the terrible luck of running into something that felt extremely negative, almost indescribably bad. I don't stick around for that, I don't know how to handle that and so I always do my best to avoid anything that sends a red flag up.
My abilities have become quite a bit stronger, but in no way have they become more controllable. I have learned to recognize and listen to the warning bells when I am in the presence of things otherworldly but that's about all.
That leads me to my story. This all started happening about a week and a half ago. At first I thought they were just nightmares, but as time went on they became more and more vivid. Eventually they crossed into the realm of downright real. Vision like.
Let me briefly explain what's going on in these dream visions. They're consistent across the board so there isn't much difference between them.
The very first dream I had was, essentially, me exercising a demon. In this dream the demon started out as a small child, a little boy. But I was still getting the warning bells that this was not a little boy. As time went on the face of the child morphed into a seafoam green fly-like monster. It told me its name was Beelzebub. I then proceeded to demand that it leave and with sheer willpower I made as solid of a stand as I could, and as I did so it began to crumble until it completely vanished.
● HOW IT CONNECTS TO MY DAILY LIFE:
I was later talking with my friend about this dream as it was extremely vivid, and she ended up looking up information about the name that it had given me and as it turns out the depictions for this creature is a fly looking monster that is generally green. I in no way knew this. I try as hard as I can to avoid anything that could possibly lead to something finding me, and that includes even learning about demonic mythology. So this accuracy was my first clue.
In a different dream, this creature was going after my animals. I have 3 cats and 2 dogs, and this creature saw fit to go after one of my cats. I was in the hallway of my home, and I had my hand on the doorknob of the door that leads into what we call the "animal room". We have our dogs crates in this room, and it's solely dedicated to animal toys, the cat tree Etc. As I grip the door knob to turn the handle, I hear a very menacing voice very clearly say "Open the door with one hand and come to me with the other." I immediately said "no I refuse", and I turned away from the door. As I look down the hallway that leads to this door, this burning head -- which was huge by the way! It took up the entire hallway ceiling-to-floor and wall-to-wall -- came barreling towards me. It sent me into an absolute panic. I turned around, opened the door, and yelled "no" then slammed that door in the face of this head.
● HOW IT CONNECTS TO MY DAILY LIFE:
My cat threw up a couple times that day but has been otherwise fine. All of my animals have been doing that weird stare into empty space thing though, which they never done before, but as I have learned normally this is because they are either seeing or feeling something that I am not perceiving.
This most recent dream consisted of me walking through the hallways of my home. A black sludge looking shadow followed me, and eventually I drew a line and turned to face it. I questioned what it was and got no answer. So I again, started to reject it just like in the other two dreams. It vanished and I woke up.
● HOW IT CONNECTS TO MY DAILY LIFE:
I have now started to see a dark mist about my home. Just a small glimps of it here and there. I have not tried to talk to it. I'm not afraid of it, but ever since I started seeing it I have had nothing but bad luck. I've started having heart conditions, my car has had a lot of trouble almost like it's cursed, and I've been feeling generally down almost like I have a cold but I'm perfectly fine.
So as you see, these dreams consistent of a demon trying to entice me and my rejection of the invocation.
So now let me explain the waking world implications of these dreams, and why I feel they're connected to my psychic ability.
I have always been able to see and feel spirits. They flutter to me - they always have, even before I could form a proper sentence let alone understand what they were. I was once told it's almost like I'm a blinking red dot on a map, so they just find me eaisly. I would see orbs every day, hear talking, I have even been able to chat with spirits almost as though they were standing right next to me. I have seen them as solid as I can see my own hand typing this out currently.
But suddenly that's all gone. I havn't seen anything apart for glimpses of the shadow moving about my home. I hear nothing, I feel nothing. Even in going to a place where I KNOW there are spirits it's completely empty.
It's weird because for years, especially in my youth I would pray and beg to just be normal. I would literally panic and cry because I could do these things and see things that no one else could. I thought I was absolutely insane, something was wrong with me. But now that I'm not seeing anything or feeling anything or hearing anything, apart from the shadow, it's almost heartbreaking. It just doesn't feel right.
Not only have I suddenly become psychically deaf but my fiancee and several family members have told told me I don't look right. I look off. They can't explain what they mean when I ask for clarification. I have considered the levels of demonic possession: Depression, oppression, possession.
I don't feel depressed or angry or sad or anything. Don't feel oppressed exactly apart from generally feeling lack luster. I dint believe I am anything remotely close to possession.
I'm not sure if I am even dealing with a demon. Or if it's just my subconscious being a jerk to me. I have not been anywhere or done anything that would call some form of negative energy to me. I don't mess with Ouija boards, and if I'm in a place where I feel there's negativity I hightail it out of there real quick because I don't know how to handle it, and I know that I don't know how to handle it so I refuse to take any chances.
I honestly don't think I have been anywhere that something would attach to me, the last place I went was Waverly Hills Sanatorium and I took absolutely every precaution to make sure that I was coming back to my home absolutely clean. It's been six months since I've been there, or been anywhere for that matter that is considerably active. The only other activity that I have had is my general day today activity that I deal with all the time, so I am at a complete loss.
Any advice would be great. Sage isn't working.