I knew I was different from most people because I could see what they couldn't. Even from a very young age, I had spirits, entities all around me. I've even been kicked out of a house that I was renting a room in because I attracted spirits to it. I am an empath. I have always been very good at reading people and their emotions to the point where I can\'t tell certain attributes or hobbies just by looking at them. I am very big on auras. About 6 or so years ago I started being haunted or followed by something. To this day I honestly don't buy that its a spirit or force of good. I've had spirts show me things through dreams, or demons hang out around me. The thing is that I can see them in my mind, and I know where they are in a room or house or even outside, just by the vibes I get from a certain area.
Anyway, this entity has come to me on and off through the years. Sometimes he stays with me for weeks, sometimes just a few days. He comforts me and we talk about everything. He knows me pretty well id like to think. But there are a few things that worry me. First, he always comes up through the floor, I'm not sure why this particular thing bothers me so much, but I feel like its of some importance? Also, when I usually see him, he is hooded and his eyes sometimes they glow red with black speckles. The first I can remember of him was right after the person I consider to be my mom passed away. At the time I was married, and my now ex husband knew all about my gift. At first the entity started out as a shadow in the corner or in the bathroom. He would talk to me. He told me he use to be human, from the 1700s and he that he doesn't like who he became after he died. I sense a lot of regret from him, but also there is a darkness around him. When he's with me he usually fends off demons, and he has never tried to hurt me or threatened to. There have been times when he has placed certain dreams in my mind or shown me things I don't think he was supposed to. And then... Nothing. He's just gone.
A few weeks ago I felt him. He stayed for an entire week. I tried to ignore him the first day, because I had a boyfriend and I kind of felt like I was cheating in a way because the entity usually surrounds me when I'm in bed. Or I guess he holds me. He knows I have bad nightmares when I sleep alone. I tried asking him why he came back. But he wouldn't tell me. He has never stayed with me 24/7 for an entire week. Saturday I try to get a hold of my boyfriend. (he was in the army) I got on his facebook to see if maybe he had posted and found posts saying RIP. I automatically called him and after no answer I called his best friend and told him to call my boyfriends sister and find out what was going on. He called me back and told me my boyfriend was in an accident and didn't make it. I later found out that my boyfriend tried to stop his friend from driving drunk by getting in the car with him... (ehh don't ask it doesn't make sense to me either) and that they crashed. My boyfriend died four minutes after getting in the car. Of course I was hysterical and crying. But the entity was gone and I haven't seen him since. Why would he just abandon me? I've tried calling to him by candles. I thought maybe he was supposed to be my spirit guide. He would never leave me not in a time like this. My boyfriend has been around me lately off and on, and I think that might be what is scaring him away. But I don't understand, when I have sensed his energy before he always seemed so powerful. Has anyone had any experience with what I might be dealing with?