Please answer this question, I am literally freaking out right now.
I have struggled with anxiety and OCD all my life. About 3 weeks ago, I was watching a YouTube video, and when it got to the time, "6:22," a Snapchat notification popped up. At the time I was 14 years old (my birthday is April 27), and N is the 14th letter in the alphabet. 2 is my unlucky number. So my OCD of course made me start to believe that I was going to die on June 22 (6:22 on the time). So for the past few weeks, I have been OBSESSING over it, not even joking, thinking about it 24/7, terrified that something is going to to happen to me. WELL THEN, a week ago, I was riding my bike, and out of nowhere, the word "cremation" pops into my head. 3 hours later, the name "Rosemary" pops into my head. That is the name of great aunt who died a few months ago. It can't be a grieving thing, because I barely knew her. But the problem with this is, I don't know if those were premonitions, or just thoughts that popped into my head because I had been obsessing over it for the past 2 weeks. And let me note that those words randomly popped into my head when I wasn't even necessarily thinking about it. I've had about 5 panic attacks over the past few weeks and this is so debilitating it is taking over my life. Now literally every time a thought pops into my head I think it is a premonition! I have never even been one who ever thought about suicide, in fact up until recently I've always been a happy person, and this is just ruining it for me. I am on Zoloft but that isn't seeming to help.
I really hope this is just my anxiety. I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow and hopefully it can be resolved there, but please answer my question, on at least what you think about it.
Just ran across this post and wondered how you are doing.