Ever since I was younger (I am now 17), I have had a lot of experience with extreme intuition and claircognizance. I never understood this as anything other than normal because I have always experienced these phenomenons so I never knew others couldn't feel things the same way. I just acted as if the way I operated was completely normal, until I began researching my deep feelings. About a week or two ago I began to research crystal children, and I realized this could be part of my answer. I now need an outlet for this situation, and I'm hoping to find someone who can help me find peace and assure that what I'm feeling is here for a reason. I have a specific scenario I am in right now and I don't know what exactly to do, because I know what is to come but I don't know how it's going to begin.
Excusing that introduction, there is a boy in my life that I haven't formally met but I know I will end up married to. There is a lot of blocks to how I will get to him, though. I know him through a mutual person in both of our lives, but I cannot see a way that this relationship could happen except for snapshot images of my future with him and the way I can feel something click into place when he's near me. I almost feel crazy-- because from the surface or "the outside looking in" it seems out of reach, but from the very first time my friend mentioned she knew this person (before seeing him, knowing his name, or meeting him) I knew I felt something for him and that he would soon realize he felt something for me, too. He has vaguely shown interest in me, but I have only heard flirtatious things or comments through other people. When I met him, he was very shy and almost standoffish. What has been worrying me is the way we will start connecting, because it's hard for me to standby and have so much insight of our future together but not be able to act on it yet. I have met him once, and I could sense that he was nervous and I could easily tell that there was energy between us. I also can sense that this situation and his feelings are going to be rough because of how we met (the person who we met through probably doesn't want us to be together, but it feels inevitable.) I feel so much for him already- I can feel his emotions and I understand the way he reacts to things, and I can feel that in some way our souls are meant to be near one another.
My strong intuition has given me the gift of knowing who to trust and who not to trust. Since I started high school, there has been plenty of opportunities for me to be in a relationship with boys I have had crushes on, but when they began to show interest back and ask me out on dates I instantly would know that wasn't the right path for me so I would take myself away from the situation or person. The boy I'm telling you about in this situation is the only boy I have ever felt such a deep connection to despite only meeting once (barely at that-- he was reserved and quiet) that has made me feel like this relationship is meant to happen and I am meant to feel these things. I feel like fate plays a big part in this, and it's past my abilities to know exactly how he will begin to show interest in me, but I cannot stop this from running through my mind.
I'm sharing this story in hopes of someone else having these feelings of something seeming out of reach but knowing its going to happen. I'm in search for advice for learning to deal with knowing the future but not knowing how it will end up that way, and I'm also reaching out to those who might also have sensitive intuition when it comes to romance and what I can do to find peace while knowing what I know but not being able to speed up the process.
Also, I think in a way I am searching for reassurance that what I'm feeling is legitimate and I'm not just simply "over thinking it."
Any advice, similar experiences, or information will be gladly listened to and accepted.
Thank you for reading.