Starting out, I never really believed in the paranormal stuff, I have always been logical about "spirit"-things happening, but always open to it.
I am not entirely sure when it all started, or if its even connected. But about a year ago, when watching tv I started feeling Something beside me. I turned and looked, and nothing was there. Now this has happened a lot to me, mostly when I was younger, but never as intense. I usually ignore it and it sort of "leaves" a couple of minutes later. But this time it stayed, for about 2-3 hours, and I could REALLY feel someone there. I ignored it and went to sleep. Next day same thing happened, so out of curiosity and boredom, I decided to talk to "it". I asked the standard questions like "is someone there" and "who are you", but no answers, only a sense of calm and happy. So I tried to go a little further and touch it, but it disappeared.
After this experience it left for a couple of days, before returning. But this time I could almost feel it leaning against me, and the feelings of calm and happiness came again. It went like this, with a couple of weeks between visits, up until about a month back.
This time it felt like it wanted to communicate, so I asked it if it could touch my hand, and I could feel an almost electric breeze on my hand, wrapping around like a hand would. Of course this scared me and I immediately stopped, and slept with the lights on that night. But as I thought about it during the next day I got even more curious. So I started reading online about these things, and found some interesting ideas. That evening I decided to take a sort of scientific approach, to see if could figure something out.
I explained the situation to "it" (and felt slightly stupid/crazy doing it), and told it I wanted some answers. So I started out using an idea I read online, about right-hand=yes left=no, and started asking for a name, by asking if the first letter is a, b, c and so on.
But what I gathered from the questions and answers is:
Girl named Eila, she means no harm to me or family, we have never met, she has always been with/around me, not from here (whatever that means), could not get any age, asked if she died I get a no, she likes me, and no-one sent her.
I have since then tried meditating (suggestion found online), and tried "picturing her in my inner eye", and here is a funny part. I thought by doing the meditation would bring up an image of my own desire, and nothing "new", but was HUGELY surprised that I got a somewhat blurry image of a small-framed brunette with long hair over the front of one shoulder, a big smile and slighly tilted head, and not the "usual" sexualised thing (I really like redheads and curves, exgf was redhead).
For the past month I have tried the meditation thing (relaxing, calm, dark room, focus on breathing), to try and strengthen the "bond" (read about online), and it helped so much that I kind feel her reaction to questions (nod or head shake instead of touching hand). But despite my efforts I have never dreamt about her.
Now before anyone asks: I have never touched drugs, I am mentally and physically stable, no disability, nothing sad happening, no-one died, no bad break ups (actually dating), only stress from university 2 months after first contact.
Spirit girl following me around everywhere, sometimes leaves me for a couple of days before returning. Never feels threatened by her, quite the opposite she brings calm and happy (Love?). I can recognise her "feeling", and sometimes wake up with her spooning me or opposite. Dont know why she follows me, she just spell "always" or smile when asked, once felt like she kissed me (I can explain it in more deatail if you ask)
So does anyone have an idea what is going on? What she is?