Until the age of twelve I had great abilities that assisted me in my everyday life.
My intuition was pretty good for a kid and I could control my dreams when I really tried it was like a video game, some of them turned out to be visions as well maybe 20 a year or so that I clearly recognized other times it just felt like Deja vu's. I was also very in touch with feelings/emotions and could tell someone how they felt even a grown up not having experienced what they've been through, hence me claiming I was an empath. It was like second nature I could easily analyze a person's feelings especially if they were intense or off.
This all came in handy especially as a kid, the feelings I could sense kept me out of many potential bad things with people who acted with predatory like actions as well as came to a point where I was never targeted for things like that anymore they wouldn't even look my way but would with other kids and wouldn't pursue me or any kids I was around. My dreams helped me in conflict with my parents, as well as with finding things I would have never found if I hadn't remembered the feeling of that time, place, setting, atmosphere, and even how I felt in that moment in my dreams. I could also see shapes and figures moving under my eyes that I could relate to psychedelic art, I would close my eye for fun sometimes and just watch them move and shift around in to different assemblies and shapes.
When I turned twelve I became a victim of my mom's underlying tendency to emotionally abuse people closest to her. She would also do so physically, but I told my dad and he stopped her from that (he never knew she started to emotionally abuse me until I told him a few ears later) On top of that my dad abandoned our close relationship because my mother decided to put him on child support claiming I betrayed him (what a buffoon I was twelve years old). Seven years of this totally screwed me over to the point where I've lost touch with my abilities, I feel as if they're being over crowded by my anxiety, depression (which I overcame), and now a very strong ego not in the terms of being arrogant, but in terms of building a wall around myself. I've been inconsistently trying to meditate and research on how to heal from this, but even if I do will these abilities come back? I feel like they're still there and functioning on their own, but my mind is so cluttered I cannot tell, the only thing I do know is still there is whatever protected me from potential harm, but it's distorted like I must analyze if I'm overthinking it or if it's a real feeling. Has anyone been through the same of their awareness in their abilities subsiding or something?
No, I wouldn't say they were psychic abilities but just heightened senses, I couldn't ever predict anything.
P.S. I know it wasn't just my imagination because my half-brother from my dad has heightened senses now as well as my dad, that's where my brother and I got it from. My older half-sisters from my dad as well have similar senses and abilities.
My dad's is the strongest of all of us though, he has involuntarily had encounters with spirits and such.