I'm 18 years old, and depressed/scared of my abilities. I can feel when something bad is going to happen, or if someone is about to die (never specific on whom it is). I can also sense when a friend is feeling any negative emotions, and I get confused on if it is my own emotions or another's.
Last year I knew 3 people were going to die.
1. My friend's father who died in a car accident I saw through a dream. In this dream my father was hit by a car, and the reactions to witnessing this were the same reactions when I found out the news 3 months later.
2. My uncle died from a gunshot wound to the head. With this one I had flashes of images of my mother dying in different ways, but the main way was gunshot to the head. I drew this out because I'm terrified when I get these precognitions, and I need to cope. His death was a few days after I had the flashes of images, and the drawing.
3. Another relative died, it was a light sense of heaviness since I wasn't close to them, and I heard about the news 1 week later.
When I feel the death of someone coming close I get intense, and heavy emotions. I'm overwhelmed by fear, and I get nauseous, and sick. I feel exhausted, and drained for the next day or 2 (or until the death happens depending on the intensity). I also am highly irritated after I get tired of being saddened by it. How do I control this? What is this for? What do I do with this?
I also have a hard time with knowing if it is anxiety or truly knowing something is coming. I truly need help with how to cope, please help.