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Not Getting The Message


I have been lurking around the internet to help me find some answers to events that have me, quite frankly, scared witless. I found this site and am hoping that someone can help me come to terms with things that I have been desperately trying to avoid and ignore for years.

Let me start off by saying I am a Phys. Major and Irish Catholic for obvious reasons these two things have left me in a constant state of fear, confusion and guilt over recent events. I have had moments that I have had to check myself for possible explanations for things that I have been seeing and feeling. With that being said, here goes.

Since I was around ten, I started getting feelings from places and people. These would range from extremely pleasant to extremely unpleasant, and I would attach a color with them accordingly. I didn't see the colors around them, but a color would pop into my head. This has become more vibrant in the last six months. I also would get these feelings about people and instinctively know things about them. Funny, but if I watch people, they wear life's events on their faces like a mask. I have had visits from family members who have passed or just prior too.

Although I have felt uncomfortable and uneasy with places, certain events, never have I been afraid of any of this, until recently.

Six months ago I had an issue with my health that was a near death crisis. It was an experience that although horrific, changed my outlook on life and left me with a feeling of gratitude that cannot be expressed in words. This is when things started to get a little hairy. I have had to look into myself and check my sanity, because things are so bizarre, I have a hard time believing they are really happening.

I will fast forward to the events that occurred this month and am desperately asking for someone to help me with what is happening. My family and I went of vacation to a beautiful island and stayed in a very old home that we have stayed in previously. The third night we stayed here, I was feeling very uncomfortable, like there was something I needed to do but couldn't quite remember what it was. I read for a while after turning in for the day and out of the corner of my eye I saw something gesturing to me. It scared me so bad that I ran out of the room yelling like a banshee of course waking everyone in the house. Feeling like a nutcase I told everyone I had a bad dream and we all went back to bed. I was awoken by something pulling the blankets at the foot of the bed. It was so prominent that my Fiancé' asked me to stop hogging the covers. In that instant the word "ring" popped into my head. Needless to say there was no sleeping that night and I did a couple of Laps around the Rosary.

The morning finally came and as I was making coffee I had this incredible urge to move the couch and look under the rug for a ring. When I found it I started to cry. A beautiful ring was wedged between the molding and the floorboards underneath. I contacted the owner of the property and she said that a ring had been lost and the owner was heartbroken over it. Her grandfather had given the ring to his Granddaughter and had died just shortly afterwards. That of course is an example of the nice things that have happened.

This last week I was feeling extremely agitated, jumping at slamming doors, very uptight. My nights have been filled with broken sleep, uneasy feelings and being genuinely scared and apprehensive.

There has never been a time in my life when things have been so wonderful. My son is growing into an amazing man, I am engaged to a man that is amazing and my job is great so I have not been able to attach an issue with the feelings I am getting.

Two nights ago, I was woken up by a feeling of something on my face, what felt like hands covering my mouth. I know I was awake because just seconds before this, the bed was jerked, startling me out of sleep. I felt like something was trying to hurt me. I thrashed, and grabbed for my fiancé. My screaming finally woke him up, and stopped the assault. Of course the Phys. Major in me has been trying to rationalize this along with my Fiancé, Freud and his symbols, but I honestly believe as crazy as it sounds that is was not a dream or a sub conscious message. Something was trying to get my attention. I feel like if I don't "get it" I am missing something terribly important. In reflection of the event I think it was an attention grabber more that anything ominous. Maybe that's not correct either. I could really use some advice on how to proceed.

I am sorry for this being so wordy, and I could go on forever. I am so confused and I am hoping that someone here can help me come to terms and peace with all of this.

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dreamergurl (guest)
15 years ago (2009-06-03)
Wow. That is quite a life you live! You are very gifted, and extremely lucky, however all this does have a bittersweet edge to it, does it not? Anyway, about your abilities... I am actually quite dumfounded, I have not heard of abilities quite like yours. The feelings sound like you are an empath, though the situation your life is, all that possitive energy does not explain it. Maybe it could be a form of empathy, a new branch of that talent. As for the ring incident, that is a little easier to explain. I believe that the grandfather must have been telling you about it. Spirits have the ability to put their own thoughts, feelings and words into our own minds. He must've been telling you about the ring. Some (most, unfortunately) spirits also have the ability to posess matter, take control of it. You being a Phys. Major I believe would understand what I mean by this? Anyway, that's how we get poltergeists- and little "signs" from ghosts who want our attention. A tug on the sheets here, a pull on a sleeve there, it's all from spirits syaing, "Hey! You with the psychic aura! I see you! Can you help me?" Or it could just be annoying pranksters. 😉 Anyway, I hope this helped! Feel free to e-mail me anytime, I would really love to talk about your experiences; it sounds like you have many more! Good Luck!

Ciao for Now--
Annie ❤

Annie.haftl [at]
ostara8 (124 posts)
15 years ago (2009-06-03)
annev... You should WRITE. Do you have any idea how you put things? Beautiful! Thank you! The chalk analogy... I am going to use that!
ostara8 (124 posts)
15 years ago (2009-06-03)
you are very psychic. You are connected. Spirits and ghosts sense this, so come to you for help... Alas, you may also attract lower beings. Don;t stress, you are not crazy, it is normal among "us". Pray. Ask for protectin. Archangel michael is assigned to us for this purpose, but cannot help until asked. Be brave. You have this gift for a reason. To help people, and the spirits of those who have passed. This is a blessing, once you get ahold of it and accept it. You are lucky to be able to help so... And you chose this prior to incarnation. And, god needs us, which is why the gifts are given/taken on.
Again, whatever you need help with, ask, so it can be given.
40dreamer (1 stories) (4 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-29)
fear is an amazing crippling force that I am trying to at least face and minimalize if that is possible. Edmund thank you for your calming words. Phrases such as "astral flying" are foreign to me, but am trying to soak up any imformation I can. Had an awful experience last night and am trying to determine if this "thing" I am feeling or seeing has negative intentions. I though it was because I wasn't getting the message, now I am not so sure. Thank you all for your words of wisdom.
GlendaSC (5 stories) (1475 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-28)
Mysti - I'm writing a fiction book, but wrote a little bit about astral voyaging and was afraid a little. My last Sunday's sermon was about fear. Today, I just asked, should this be included in my book. Boom. A second later my computer, which I thought was off made a noise. It's on. Perhaps I didn't shut down, but I've gone in the bedroom and checked it. The light it on, but it's not made a noise since. Well, went downtown with my company and a movie with my son and a concert tonight, but I have checked and it's still quiet. Odd.
Edmund (578 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-28)
40dreamer... You don't let go of the fear... You manage it better. The fear is a sort of a feedback to finding out what type of spirit you are dealing with. The filter that you want is your spirituality that is framed by your religion. It will never be 100% effective in screening out the undesirable spirits but it works well. So its small steps at first!
mystical2 (16 stories) (483 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-23)
I think it is safe to say that we all have experienced something frightful at some time or another. Like everything else, you have to find a way to ease that emotion so it doesn't consume you. Everyone has their own thing. I find prayer helps me. Prayer gives me strength and eases my fear. You just have to find and work with what helps you.
GlendaSC (5 stories) (1475 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-23)
40 - I don't know about astral flying classes. I've never had one. But it sounds like you are preparing and freak to me. No offense. Perhaps the classes ease the way as opposed to being clueless and finally having to deal with the panic and finally realizing they are okay. It was a real relief to know others voyaged, but it's still very weird.
GlendaSC (5 stories) (1475 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-23)
40 - for myself, I'm a big chicken sometimes and voyages scared the heck out of me. I just finally had to say (after I admitted they were real), okay, I'll go and trust I'd live and get back. I'm not a nervous or jumpy person and I don't think very much scares me in real life. But it's hard, and I don't suggest doing this until you're ready, today or forty years from now.
40dreamer (1 stories) (4 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-23)
What a wonderful place this is. The advice is so appreciated. How do you let go of the fear part? In theory it is such a simple thing, but I almost feel that if I let go of it I will loose the rational part of myself. It would be wonderful if only the good were to get through, if I was able to somehow place a filter in place, but I know that is not possible. I am trying to come to terms with this but the fear of going around the bend so to speak, paralysis me.

I admire you all so much for being in such a great place, to be able to step out of it and offer encourgement and advice.
Edmund (578 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-23)
40dreamer... Its the what do I do with this... Part that sucks and only can be resolved with some time and practice so to speak. But first an analogy moths are attracted to light most people are like a flashlight psychics/sensitives are like a huge spotlight that the moths "spirits" are attracted to. The first thing is to listen to your inner voice and figure out if the spirit/ghost is bad or evil. If you feel that it is then the Rosary comes out... Last thing you need is to be bothered by evil. The rest of it is trial and error since your a phys. Major thinking in the abstract is to your advantage since most messages will be colored that way. The fear part of dealing with spirits subsides somewhat over time but it is important to have a sort of tempered fear as it acts as a warning system... Its the running around and screaming part that needs to be worked on... Its hard not to a lot of us on this site have been there. And the near death experience kicked the ability into high gear!
davis_em (1 stories) (23 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-23)
I'm going to sound like a parrot, but let go of the fear. Psychic experiences can be pretty frightening if you aren't prepared for them, but if your gut feeling was that you were in no danger and you weren't hurt at all, let go. Take a deep breath, tell yourself that you aren't being hurt, and go with the flow. You'll be awed and amazed once you stop fighting it. 😉
steve11 (1 stories) (31 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-23)
Is there someone in your life who wants you to fail? Maybe that's why you are being shown someone trying to harm you.
hardtoremember (37 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-23)
Maybe you are experiencing it now because you will pay more attention to it.
It sounds like a wonderful gift that has given a heartbroken woman some closure to her Grandfather's death for starters.
We have all been in your situation. When it starts it really starts. The first thing I would work on is your fear. Do not let it consume you. They come to the bright lights. You are one of them and they only have the power over you that you give them.
When I do get scared or when they won't leave me alone I either tell them to go away or ask the Lord to send Angels.
It more than likely isn't going to go away so learn to work with it and use it as a gift in your everyday life.
GlendaSC (5 stories) (1475 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-22)
Well, I feel like fear is a trap. I've felt it and decided no, won't let it grip me. My advice is pretty corny - go back to the basics, the very basics, and picture your most happy, content future - and that's what you should work to get. Perhaps its being married and being strong or maybe something else. No life changing decisions have to happen this very second, but fight for it, whatever it is.
40dreamer (1 stories) (4 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-22)
Thank you so much for your comments. I feel so completely overwhelmed; I am not sure how to proceed. I have decided to start meditation again and to dig into all information I can find. I am sure that part of my fear is due to ignorance. I cannot understand why I am experiencing these things at this level at this point in my life and at this time, it is not exactly welcomed. I tried to ignore the things that are occurring and it is impossible, just resulted in another sleepless night. I feel like a blind man trying to get through a maze with my feet shackled.
mystical2 (16 stories) (483 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-22)
Hmm. Was a man gesturing you? I wonder if it was the grandfather that guided you to find that ring so it could be returned to his grand daughter.
Also, you said you felt the hands on your mouth was an attention grabber. Follow your gut feelings. Almost always they will prove to be right. Relying on mine has actually saved me at times. I've dismissed things as well, later learning I shouldn't have.
You are not losing your mind at all. I think we have all on here thought this some time in our lives. After all, we are human. Scientists have proven that we have energy all around us. We all can't see it physically, but it exists, as well as everything else you are experiencing.

Also, if something wants your attention, they will most likely come back. Clear your mind and listen. Perhaps they are trying to tell you something and your not listening or hearing. Such as you did with the ring, listen for other messages. Spirits sometimes get frusterated, like us.
TimeTraveler (3 stories) (30 posts)
16 years ago (2008-07-22)
Sounds to me like you are waking up. Like you, I did the Physics/Engineer thing. Back in college I even asked the Dean of the physics dept. If it was possible to know the answers to tests beforehand. He said, "Only if you are cheating..." That kind of sealed it for me; science obviously didn't/doesn't have all the answers.

Back to your question, like Anne says, maybe it's time to do some research outside of your normal boundaries.

First, you consist of a physical body and an etheric body. Both have ears, eyes etc. And can see, hear etc.; just in different realms.
Second, when we go to sleep the two bodies separate. The physical goes to sleep and the etheric goes and does whatever. If you maintain consciousness throughout the falling asleep process then you can move directly into astral travel - but that takes a lot of practice. Also just before you wake up the two bodies come back together usually in a jerk. I believe that was the jerk you felt - totally normal.

You could try googling 'Monroe Institute' for starters

Good Luck,
AnneV (4 stories) (1064 posts) mod
16 years ago (2008-07-22)
You should probably start with some research outside of your physics and bible. There is a lot more out there and you'd probably be surprised to see how intertwined physics is with subtle realm experiences.

Unfortunately for our society, anything that can't be measured, weighed, and repeatedly proven falls into the "mystery" realm, whether it's a miracle or out-of-body experience. Yet life has a pesky way of showing us that there is more to it than what the five senses show us, hence all the later turmoil, fear and doubt.

Life is life, whether it's living out a droll existence in an office or being psychic. And that life isn't just going to show any of us the good or just the bad because life is both (ying/yang, positive/negative, good/bad). We relish the good and fear the bad but we wouldn't grow if it was just good. You are living that reality. You wouldn't be able to see white writing on a white chalk board so here comes black writing on that white wall. It's plain and clear then but the contrast has to exist.

You are obviously sensitive so when you dropped what was covering up your senses the ability to see and experience subtle realms returned.

People are so shocked by all the negative energy near planet earth and our low vibrational frequency but I ask, why? Look at all our hate, war, judgment, and stepping all over each other. Like attracts like. Not just as a single energy but also as a whole. This is earth and what we've created for ourselves and the psychics and sensitive individuals are affected more than anyone else.

This is the first grade people. This is where 'humans' in kindergarten fashion come and learn the knocks of life and the knocks of spiritual life. But it's as necessary as the physical lower grades because we'd never learn, graduate and eventually teach unless we walk this path.

The closest we can move away from negative experiences is with love and stopping the judgment (It's bad! It's evil!). Sure it appears as all those things but more than we realize, it's because we make it so. We feed it. Try loving hate and see how fast it morphs. The better you get, the more effective you are (think of Jesus, Buddha or other very developed souls). They don't attach themselves to it, just let it move by and love what is.

There is nary a bad entity that I've run into that I couldn't love my way out of. But that took years of failing, studying, trying (and more failing) so just know that the end of one and the beginning of the other are both within.

Hope this helps.

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