I don't know where to start. I've been having visions and feeling energies for as long as I can remember. My father runs a cemetery and I was once living there, now that I think back, I've always felt the presence of something. It can be overwhelming. To be honest with you, I lost contact with that part of me when I started taking drugs (prescription/street) but now that I've been sober for a few months, memories, feelings, energies, are flowing back to me. I've been going into trance like states and writing "poems" that are, although very cryptic, are very revealing.
The reason I'm attempting to contact someone on here is that last night me and a childhood friend had an experience that really confirmed that there is indeed a "presence" in my household, mainly the downstairs family room. My friend and I were at odds all night, which we have been for some time, but we almost got into a physical fight and there were some harsh words thrown at each other. So we went and sat in the family room downstairs, listened to some music and once the music stopped, we looked at each other and felt this cold chill. It's really funny because I'm feeling it as I type this, and we both started crying.
Keep in mind, we are 20 year old males from New Jersey. We haven't cried around each other since grade school. The feeling of fear and solace took over us and we cried and opened up and I feel like we found a deeper understanding of each other through this, BUT, since we did give the "presence" acknowledgment, I believe it keeps trying to connect with me. It seems like a mesh of multiple "spirits".
Either way, I'm trying to understand, is there any way I can help it find peace so it can leave me alone for once!? I try to sleep and all I feel is it sitting there. It's kind of annoying! Can anyone give me any insight as to what to do?