All right, here's the deal. I bought this house in March, 2008, it is now December. We completely renovated the house, tore it apart and put it back together. Until I moved in here, only one thing had happened which I dismissed as that I was crazy.
I was working in the basement which is unfinished with a cement floor. I noticed a lump in the floor colored different from the other cement and about the size of a human adult. (I think you know where I am going with this). I was skeptical but a little freaked out. I continued working when suddenly I became sweaty and light headed, and then felt myself lifted into the air; very quickly, up and down again. I have experienced presences in other places and I immediately decided something was in my floor. So I made a deal with it; I told the lump that if it wanted to stay there and be left alone, it better leave me alone. If it messed with me, I would dig it up. I figured either way, we would both get what we wanted.
Nothing else happened and eventually I decided that what I experienced was physical and not spiritual. Months later I moved in and shortly after, other things began to happen. Our fans will turn on when no one is by the panel; I've checked it out. It's not the electrical, something is turning them on. I also see flashes of light in the stairwell, in the same spot and often. At first I thought it was me, but there is definitely something going on there. I also have been having nightmares ever since I moved in here; usually I sleep on the couch because for some reason I just don't spend much time in my room, which by the way is always really cold, even when its nice out. And finally, when no one is home; I hear thumping noises upstairs. Sometimes like footsteps, but usually just thumping.
My recent realization that the flashes of light in the stairwell are not my imagination confirmed it for me; something is in the house. I spoke with my friend who has psychic potential but does not pursue it. As I suspected, she had refrained from sharing her own experiences with me (to not freak me out). She said the first time she walked in my house, during renovations, she wanted to scream. She does not like the upstairs at all; she has never gone up there. She says something really violent happened in the house (its old from the late 1800s). She suspects that it's not a specific entity but just bad energy.
I asked why I don't get bad vibes from the house and she says it's because I have feelings of pride towards it; it was my project and my first house so I have good feelings towards it.
So here's the problem, I know it's negatively affecting me because I can't sleep well and when I do I have crazy bad dreams. My energy levels have been low and my mood is oddly nothing, I'm not depressed but it's like I've lost my ability to be happy.
I want to cleanse my house but I do not know exactly what to do. I read a posting here before where someone named Concrete Angel gave good advice, if you are reading I would be really interested to talk to you. I have a feeling that whatever it is, is quite dormant right now but has some serious potential. I think it's left us alone cause of our "deal" and cause I ignore it (usually, sometimes I joke about "Fan Man", that's what I've named it cause of the fan thing) and I'm not afraid of it; my roommate, aside from the fan thing, doesn't really believe in this stuff and ignores it too.
So my other question is should I cleanse or leave it alone? My gut says it could get ugly. I'm pretty sure I'm right, I have been told on several occasions that I have significant psychic potential, but I need to learn to "let go". (This segues nicely into my other query): I am very analytical and logical, I need to know the "why" and "how". While I have had experiences, this is ability to "let go" is somewhat abstract for me. Any advice as how to do this or what people mean by it would be awesome. (But please remember you're talking to someone who is very logical and methodical, I need you to and would appreciate you breaking it down for me).
Thanks very much, Tara