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I See Things I Don't Always Want To See


I'm 22 years old and have had quite and eventful life with things I can't always seem to explain or worse just tell anyone about. While I was growing up reaching my teen years, I used to have strange dreams of places I have never been to and people I didn't know very well that had a bad judgment of me, people protecting me and even seeing my fathers death. It scared me a little back then but not to the point that I ever thought it would actually happen.

Since then over the years I have become very sensitive of peoples thoughts, guilt and pain.

When I meet people for the first time I see things I don't always want to see, I can see if they've done something evil or if they are a good person.

When I was 17, I was with one of my first proper boyfriends and at the time he was in prison and I happened to be staying with his mother and grandmother.

His grandmother wasn't right, she wouldn't do anything for herself even though she was capable, she had to have everything done for her and I always sensed she was extremely troubled by something. She was haunted by something and was messing with things she had no power over.

Over time I came to realize I couldn't sit in the same room as her if I did id become very tired and fall asleep being in the same room as her was exhausting.

One night when I was asleep, I dreamt she was sat at the end of my bed staring at me, doing something with her hands, she was trying to kill me. I woke up thinking she was really there still but I was alone.

I don't know how exactly but I learned she was responsible for her husbands death, she killed him, she stood over his bed like she did mine and poisoned him. She'd also been messing with spells she didn't understand.

Since then she'd become frightened of the evil that haunted her she used to talk to something next to her all the time, there was nothing there but I could see a little boy, he was dead, stood next to her. It was like he had some kind of control over her, she was frightened of him, the little boy was mischievous and had a bad energy and was full of hatred.

He always used to sit under the table she sat next to and kick her and make her choke on her food.

It frightened me at times to know that I was living in the same house as someone who killed there husband and to shock me more, she began to try talking to me. She never spoke to anyone but she tried to talk to me when I left that house for good, she didn't want me to go.

I don't know if she'd shown me what she felt and had done, but it was like she found some comfort in knowing I was there.

That's the best I can explain about that situation as I still don't really fully understand it myself and find it hard to think about.

But I have had a lot of similar experiences throughout my life and now its getting to the point where it gets me in trouble.

I sense people that don't like me or have a problem with me and see their motive of what they want to do and I have taken action before its happened and my partner or family think I'm deliberately causing trouble through jealousy or something.

I've recently got a new lodger, the third one for this year, and I have never had a problem with them, only if they were messy or anything of that nature.

I've never been one for causing trouble or arguments, I hate negativity.

But my latest one had turned out to be quite shy to start with, but speaks to me on a level now but I sensed she had a problem with me, if I sit in the same room as her I feel anxious that she wants me out.

I can see why she doesn't like me as well, I know she has taken a liking to my boyfriend and its her first love/crush and she hates it when I'm around. When I leave the room and my boyfriend and her are alone, she completely changes, I feel awkward around her as its such a personal thing to know how and what someone thinks especially when its sexual about a person.

But now sensing these things is almost like its already happened but it hasn't yet. I wanted to tell my boyfriend what she's thinking or what will happen but how do I prevent it when I can't show someone what I see.

These are just a few instances of things I can sense from people I could go on and on.

I mentioned that I saw my father die in my dream, he did later die the same way a few years later. I didn't happen to be there at the precise point he died but he made me give a message to my mother after the funeral.

He kept calling for her but I had to be very careful how I told her the message as she refused to hear it, as it made her sad.

But the more I kept it to myself the more I hurt, I felt the love and heartbreak my father felt for her.

When I moved into my first home a year ago I chose the home because it was peaceful and felt like home.

But when I moved in it was chaos, the house felt so negative and bad things kept happening like id been hit with bad luck.

Then I remembered that my boyfriend had been looking after one of his friends tarot cards as they were giving the person nightmares.

When we moved into the house, he'd brought them with him but because he'd moved them, it had somehow upset the balance or energy in are new home and I begged him to give them back to the person.

At first he thought I was just being funny with him but it got to the point where we were getting into arguments, I shouted at him and told him to get rid of them and I knew that just throwing them away wouldn't solve the problem.

While all this was happening I could constantly feel my father's presence next to me he was trying to make me feel safe.

When we drove to the owner of the cards, even just sitting in the car felt negative, it was like my father was escorting me making sure I got them back safely, it felt so strong it was overwhelming.

After I gave the cards back to the rightful owner, everything went back to normal.

It was such a huge relief it felt like a huge black cloud had been lifted from above my home and it was finally peaceful again.

I find it very tiring picking up on these senses and they always turn out to be true, I only wish I could control them, I often question myself am I really seeing these things? Or is it just in my head?

There are days when I just don't want to talk because I'm so fed up from hearing peoples thoughts, its almost like I have had a conversation with someone for hours and I just want a break.

I find it very hard to fit in with people or groups of friends at times, I feel so different from everyone and get so frustrated when I see something so beautiful but I can't show it or share it with someone.

I often think I have a wild imagination or think I'm crazy.

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AuroraRosa (4 stories) (16 posts)
12 years ago (2009-06-11)
I feel the same way that you do, only it's a bit more muted.
Have you considered that you might be a synesthesiate? That means that you're senses are crossed in some way, like you can taste music.
I'm one, and it can be frustrating
What's really annoying to me is that my psychic abilities seem to have gotten mixed in with my extra senses, so that I can taste the emotions of people around me even when they're hiding how they feel. Sometimes I see words hanging in the air seconds before they're actually spoken. I did some research and discovered that some people believe that synesthesia is what causes people to be psychic. Or it might just be a coincidence that I am a psychic and a synesthesiete at the same time.
dragonfly (1 stories) (1 posts)
13 years ago (2009-01-05)
since the issue arrived with the lodger I have come to realise that infact she broke up with her boyfriend and misses him so she was taking comfort talking to my boyfriend the images and senses I was picking up from her were what she was missing.
I find it particulary hard when I sense other peoples personal thoughts as they are personal to the person and its not always easy to see whom the personal thoughts are about espcially if they are mixed feelings.
Or seeking comfort.
Im begginning to see the advantages or this gift however its still early days and I need to learn to control it and learn to be patient with it.
JustLearning (16 posts)
13 years ago (2009-01-05)
Hi - hope you had good holidays. We had out of town in-laws that we seldom see visit for a few days. We went places. Museums and stuff. Now and then, a person zones in on me. I'm older and not a beauty queen. They can be young adults, whatever, but it happened at a museum. One of the young ladies working there followed me around, telling me everything, and I couldn't politely get away. My sister in law said it was weird. The next day, we went to the mall and into a store. Another woman did it. I'm female. Then they, especially the sister in law, noticed that sometimes odd things happened. She had a movie IN HER HAND. Another relative saw her with it too. I said something about the movie being a little strange, "Unbroken". She carried it upstairs, then came back down a few minutes later, hunting for it and I said you took it upstairs. She couldn't find it. I found it Saturday, nicely back in the middle of our movie storage rack which we had both checked. She told me on the phone yesterday to throw it away. I laughed. Things just sometimes happen I guess.
sherlockholms (2 posts)
13 years ago (2009-01-03)
1 thing I have noticed after reading the 1st line of every 1s story is that they are all paranoid they aren't thinking straight. Yes we have these feeling they have a different name its called SUPERSTITION we all think we see these things but we really don't it can sometimes be a flashback from your child hood years where you might have seen a film and pop it came up in the time you are in so heres my advice and this goes out to all of the readers do more exercise and let more oxygen to your brain so your brain can think straight.
mystical2 (16 stories) (483 posts)
13 years ago (2009-01-01)
I personally go through spurts of why me and question what now. But one thing I am sure of is that the paranormal, angels, and such is real.
One thing that popped into my mind about the old lady that was trying to communicate with you is, "I wonder if that entity was with her at the time her husband was killed"? Most of time these entities are the ones that help move on negative situations; murders, suicides and such. Maybe she was reaching out to you for help.
shaan (1 posts)
13 years ago (2008-12-30)
dear dragronfly its sad to here that but I too have this problem like you are. I still find it very scary and...
Jesus will be with you as he was with me.
May god bless you.
❤ shaan ❤
AngelswithMe (3 posts)
13 years ago (2008-12-28)
DragonFly, Your story is so familiar to me. I've had similiar experiences since childhood. In a situation like that of your boyfriend and the girl, I'm not one to hold back what I feel and see happening to those closest to me, good or bad. Once you open their eyes much of the time they will see it clearly too. It took my husband time to accept what I tell him but now he understands. The rest of my family has only recently been told. They were shocked. But it has cleared up a lot of misunderstandings they had. Many Blessings 😁 AngelswithMe*
foxfire290 (6 stories) (7 posts)
13 years ago (2008-12-27)
I do understand so well. I have always looked at being able to sense good and evil as a way of survival kind of like an alarm system to protect you. Me and my daughter and her children all do this. Yes it can be very disrupting and unnerving but in the long run it might be what saves you. My daughter is about your age also if you need to chat with someone your age feel free to contact me. Might not feel like a gift but it is ❤
Shila13 (1 stories) (3 posts)
13 years ago (2008-12-26)
Though I don't have the same ability, I feel the same way you do like I'm crazy or I have an over-active imagination. However, I think you should be happy, you have a rare gift. It sets you apart from other people, and you should be proud. Probably didn't help much, just wanted to let you know.
Shila ❤
Oracle101 (2 stories) (506 posts)
13 years ago (2008-12-20)
Lin, I would be happy to help in anyway I can. What do you need advice on?

Oracle ❤
academylin (14 stories) (303 posts)
13 years ago (2008-12-20)
As you are still only young Dragonfly, you are extremely lucky. The fact that you are aware of your abilities now means you can deal with them and help them to progress into something that you will be truly pleased with. With a lot of personal research, correct advice and guidance, and the ability to learn from your own mistakes (which we all make along the way) you will be absolutely fine. Oracle is correct, you are among friends now and in the future you will find that you will be able to choose from many contenders for your friendship.
Welcome aboard!
Lin x
academylin (14 stories) (303 posts)
13 years ago (2008-12-20)
Dear Oracle,
I really need to get hold of you, I need your help.
I'll wait until I see you on line here, or other than that, would you mail me, my e mail is aparant on my profile. Thanks.
Lin x
Oracle101 (2 stories) (506 posts)
13 years ago (2008-12-19)
Dear Dragonfly, feel comforted knowing that you now fit in with other people; us. Many of us here share your experience and feelings. Indeed it is difficult making friends when you know people's hidden true feelings or dark secrets. Many psychics and mediums have few friends or find it hard to make friends. But you will make friends here.

Also, try to feel better about having your special ability because it has helped you. It is just another sense like hearing and seeing. You will use it to protect yourself and to help others. Put it to good use.

Let me know if you have any other questions. I am always happy to help others.

❤ Oracle ❤

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