So ever since I turned 12 (I'm 15 now) things around me started moving without anything even touching them. It started out as something as simple as doors around me which would swing back and forth, back and forth, or if I entered a room with a another door in that room open, it would slam shut. At first I thought it was a poltergeist and was terrified of it. But along the line somewhere I just realized with a gut feeling that it was me causing it and I seem to be right.
Since I noticed that whenever my emotions are heightened is when it happens (really happy, really depressed, etc.) also I have discovered this thing where I just focus and I enter this state of mind where my minds focus kind of "clicks" and then I'm able to move objects by just focusing on them although not heavy ones. Oddly, I have noticed only things that are hanging or suspended can I have any control over.
Anyway, recently it's gotten worse, and by worse I mean uncontrollable. Like I'll be sitting on the couch with my mom and the closet door will start rattling. And she'll think its one of our cats locked in the closet, she even checked and there wasn't anything in there. There never is. There's no reason why these things keep happening! It's tiring, and scary, I'm afraid of this power. If I even have it? I mean, I know I'm not just imagining it because my mom has heard the doors slam shut and blamed me! When I didn't even touch the stupid door. Or when the door started rattling she heard it and though it was the cat. What if she becomes suspicious I'm afraid she'll find out I'm a freak.
Just a couple nights ago something that has NEVER happened before occurred. I was lying in bed and all of a sudden all the little hairs on the back of my neck stood up and started moving I could almost like... Sense it. And then I had this completely indescribable feeling that took me forever to figure out it was uncomfortable, like I was missing something. Then I realized I could sense something moving, so I looked around my room and noticed three things moving in my room: the strings on my headband were erratically swinging around, my deflated balloon was crinkling in on itself and my scarf on my chair was wildly swinging back and forth. What's happening to me? The worst part is I can't control it at ALL. Not even what direction it moves! No matter how hard I focus nothing will follow which way I want it to move? Can I learn to control this? Is it really me doing this? Please help? Am I crazy or not?