All my life I wanted to see spirits and be part the paranormal but my mother would tell me not to wish it upon myself because not everything out there is good. She has seen many things in her youth (which she never cared to tell me about) and doesn't want me exposed to it.
I have had small things happen throughout my life which I did not pay much mind to until now. Whenever anything happens around or to me, it is a strange feeling but not threatening. Every time the phone is about to ring I just unconsciously grab my phone and just look at it as if the phone had rang. When I put it down it rings which is kind of weird and it happens every time without fail when my mother calls (and sometimes with other people). Or at times, I would just happen to look in a certain direction and just wait. Soon after, something would happen exactly where I would be looking.
There was this one time a few of years ago that freaked me out so much that I cried and never forgot it. I was sitting at my computer singing along to "lithium" by Evanescence and I had the TV on as well but the volume was completely down. As I was singing I heard a small "help me" voice. I started to tear up so I turned everything off. I was scared out of my mind. I told my friends and they laughed at me and then told my mum and she didn't believe me either. I heard that "help me" so clear and loud enough to be real. After that I didn't listen to evanescence at all especially not that song. Last year I decided to see if it was that song that just had it hidden in there but I listened and didn't hear it again. I don't think I can ever forget that "help me" voice but I became so afraid that I left no chance to ever hear it again or know where it came from. I feel really bad at times when I think about it and how I was so scared that if it was someone I didn't help.
I kid around with my friends when a "I knew it" or "I told you so" moment happens (which I've previously said would happen before it does) and say I'm psychic. Deep down I always wanted to be psychic or anything at all so I do not know if this is real or just me putting my desires ahead.
I guess I just want to know if anyone has anything to say about it and can help me decide what to do or what this really is. Also, if I was not just imagining the voice during the lithium song.