I tried to give enough info, while keeping it short and to the point.
I am looking for help on where to go from where I stand now.
A few years ago I would always see shadowy figures and spirits. It's never bothered me to see them and didn't frighten me. I could also walk into homes or buildings and be able to feel them and tell if it was positive or negative. Until one day when I spoke to someone about it, they told me it was because I was ok with it and that's why I could see them. The day after I spoke with this person it stopped or I just shut it out.
Around the beginning of April 09 I became curious about Astral Projection. I looked at a few sites and stumbled onto this site and the others linked to it.
I read a very good percentage of the stories, but there is one story that got me, scared me. I thought about this story a lot and I noticed everything around me. That's when the strange things started to happen I could feel everything around me again.
I always felt I was being watched, touched at all times during the day, feeling everyone around me, think random things just before they would appear. I couldn't sleep in my home and I felt as if I was loosing my mind. So my mother asked me to see a medium and I agreed to, to see if I was making everything up out of fear or if it was real. My mom always said I was gifted, I didn't think I was, I thought everyone was like this.
I spent my time with the medium. It was explained that how I could have triggered abilities from reading the stories I did. He said I am a crystal child and that I am gifted. I was told that I pick up the energy from spirits and feel what they are feeling (sad, anger, happy and so on). I've always been able to feel people, mainly when they are sad or down, and I can't seem to pick up anything but troublesome feelings. I can also see people's auras. I get random thoughts that don't pertain to what I am doing, with these thoughts I get a picture, and with in a short while it will happen during my day. The medium told me to pay attention to those random thoughts but I have some many I can't keep up with them. There has been times when I hear voices call my name, which makes me alert, and look around. When I hear more then one, I can't make out what they are saying its just mumbles. The medium told me to talk back, but I can't stay focused in order to do so.
All I have been told so far is "When the student is ready, the teacher will come."
I am not sure how to control this. I am seeking guidance from anywhere I can get it. I'd like opinions too, from all sources, May they be positive or negative and I am open to criticism as well.
Thank you for your time.