I am a 40 year old mother of eight I am an empath, I think. Or else I'm loosing my mind. I can most times feel what others are feeling, some times good feeling but mostly their anxiety, sadness, fear and generally negative feelings. I also can tell if someone is lying to me, I can feel the lie too in my stomach. My main problem is I seem to absorb this energy and I carry it with me, bringing me down and suffocating me. Especially if it's someone close to me. I hate conflict and can feel their feelings as well as my own.
I had a psychic experience in 1996, and think it could be connected to that. Two of my friends committed suicide within two weeks of each other. I knew before each of their deaths that they were going to commit suicide. I tried to tell my partner and others what was going to happen, but no one believed me. Our first friend died and my partner was shocked but put it down to coincidence. He nick named me witchy poo.
Then I got that feeling in my stomach again. I could not explain how I knew another friend was going to die, I just knew. I felt it in my tummy and I knew what would happen. Again my partner did not believe me. This feeling would not leave me alone. So I called my friend's mother and we found my friend's body in her house. It was at this point I started to question why did this happen to me? Is it my fault? Was I given this information to save their lives and did not succeed?
After this I felt so guilty that I think I attracted negative feelings and now do not know how to protect myself or stop absorbing this energy. I'm exhausted, can anyone help me?