This is *not* a ghost story which is why I'm posting it here but I first saw a ghost when I was 20, and I did not believe in ghosts. Other people in the room saw her too. Ever since then my mother and I have helped police find 4 missing persons in these past six years. None of those people were found alive. I believe the experience I had when I was 20 triggered something in me and I want it turned off.
I dream the future. I feel horrible feelings in certain places (which helped with the missing) or at random times. I hear noises, I feel things touching me, I see little "camera flashes" at night.
I am on edge now so much that I can barely function in my normal life. I can never sleep and when I have one of those "dark feelings" I have to flee whatever area I'm in. I REFUSE to go ghost hunting with friends or even go camping these days because that feeling is so deep now and something is guaranteed to happen.
I've had medical tests to see if anything was wrong with me. Only thing that was found was occasionally high blood sugar.
I've taken a lot of tests to see how psychic I am. When it comes to the guessing shapes and colors cards, I almost always guess right...
I don't want to live like this anymore. Some people think it would be cool to have a "gift" like this, but I don't. I want it all gone. I want to be normal again. I want it to all go away. Please, does anyone have any suggestions to somehow block this out? I've thought about going back to church but I am quite afraid it will sensitize me even more... Advice?
Please, this is not a joke or fiction, I need help.