It's been a while since I've posted my last story. So much has happened since then. I believe I have heard my spirit helpers speak to me three times. The voices come from within and I heard them nice and clear. Now when I try to relax in the hopes that I can hear them again, I don't.
I have been having this constant ringing in my ears. It is still here and it never goes away. For a while there, before I learned of what astral projection was, over a weeks time, I would lay in bed each night, felt vibration throughout my body, with the strong loud ringing in my ears, then all of a sudden, felt as if my body (I'm guessing spiritual body) because it wasn't my physical body, I just know and felt my arms and legs moving away from my physical body. Each time I realize this was happening, the feeling stops and all I feel is the vibration throughout my body. I was just wondering why my body was trying to astral project when I didn't even know a person could do so. Also, why wasn't I able to totally astral project? I've tried to repeat what I had experienced but it's not the same.
Also, can anyone tell me what this was? I saw myself two times. One time, as I lay down to go to bed, I'm not sure how the image occurred, but I just remember seeing myself, only from the back, meditating up high in a mountain somewhere. Another time, I also saw myself lighting candles in my room. I know that I wasn't dreaming but how can I see myself in such a way? Were they visions or dreams that just seemed so real? I know that it may have been my double etheric body, but how was I able to see it and how could I see it again?
I continue to dream every night. Most of these dreams, I recall conversations with someone but I can never see the person I'm conversing with and can never remember what we talked about. I just know I have these conversations almost every night with someone. Do any of you have an explanation for this?
Lastly, when speaking to people, I used to get a strong urge which came from the heart to tell them things about them; like their future, something that had happened from the past, or current but now I get nothing.
It seems any spiritual connection/feelings I get comes and goes from time to time. Any idea why it doesn't just stick? Am I doing something wrong?
Any help would be greatly appreciated.