The first thing I want to say is that I'm not telling you this to look cool or be like some dragonball character. I'm a hardcore empiricist. I have always been a lean person, skinny I suppose. There are a few things on my mind right now that I would like intelligent insight on. I hit very hard for my size. I had a metal door back when I lived in the barracks. When I would get angry I would hit it. There were already lots of dents in it from people hitting it before me. When I hit that door my dents were bigger than any of the existing ones. One night in particular I was really angry. When I'm mad I don't show it at all except in my eyes. This one night I was with my friends outside my room and I focused all my anger into my punch as it hit the door as hard as I could. The dent I made was 3 times larger then any of the other dents. This was before I ever heard about ki energy or Qi or anything like it.
I know for a fact I have the ability to generate energy. I do it consciously now. It helps me push heavy weights in the gym on days I'm feeling weak or lazy. I swear I think I have the ability to extend my energy to things around me but I'm not sure. I have been trying to make a psi ball lately. Is it normal for my hands to heat up and get sweaty? This happens when I meditate sometimes. Am I supposed to use my conscious will and visualization to control this energy?
One last thing. There's something in my head I can make move, it feels like a muscle, when I trigger it I can feel something move through my body starting in my head then flowing downward, I have no idea what this is. I get headaches if I do it to hard or hold it. Do you know what this is. When I was younger I used to get these very powerful zaps in my brain that would scare the crap out of me, they were very intense. I don't know if any of this is related, I just need some insight like I said before. Please explain in detail, as I am a person of great focus on details. Thank you.