Two years ago I went out with a guy for over two years who I dearly love and miss. We broke up due to me having to move away and I wasn't strong enough for a long distance relationship. A week after we parted he committed suicide and ever since I never forgave myself. A year later his mum and sister also moved on.
Now, on the 21st of May 2010, on the 2 year anniversary of his death I saw him. I was brushing my teeth and I saw him behind me in the mirror. I have also seen him across the road on the way to school. Since then strange things have been happening to my baby brother who I'm extremely worried about.
I miss him so much and it hurts to see him all the time. Is it just me going crazy or is it really him? I want to try to talk to him but I don't know how or if I can. I'd do anything just to find him. I really would...
Sometimes I have started blacking out and doing something which I won't remember. I drew a picture of him with a knife though his face. I'm a horrible drawer but this was a beautiful masterpieces, although it sounds brutal and horrible it was actually a brilliant picture.
Everyone around me is also looking at me like I'm not a person, my friends are ignoring me. My parents are pushing me away. My teachers are dreading my ability in what I can do. And for the first time in my schooling I got bellow 75% in any subject. Is this just some freak coincidence?
Thank you for your help.