A few background details: My mom has mentioned in the past to me that she feels like she is floating sometimes during sleep and in every dream, she has the ability to fly at will and get away if she needs to. She has also had a few times when she had predicted future events, but it was always brushed off as coincidence. I mentioned this upcoming story to my sister recently and she told me about her weird dreams where she thinks she is awake and sometimes she gets her dreams confused with reality. To sum it up, there seems to be some abilities from my mom that just aren't fully developed.
Lately, I've been working on trying to meet my spirit guide. I am a firm believer in the spirit world and have always been curious as to whether or not I'd be able to contact my guide.
I started seriously working on it a few weeks ago. I don't get a whole lot of time for meditation during the day, so bedtime is when I focus. I usually fall asleep while I'm relaxing. A weird thing started to happen. Every morning when I wake up (during those first few seconds of opening my eyes) I see this odd dream/vision in front of me. I briefly see a forest from the perspective of something running through it. Once I saw three figures standing by a lake in the forest and another time I saw a bird fly out from the trees. It's really odd and I just don't understand the meaning of it. What I'm seeing, I see it with my eyes open. Sort of like in my mind I suppose? I know it's not there, but I see it anyway. If you understand what I mean.
I also see weird things in my head that I believe is from my spirit guide. It's generally random things I can't really find a meaning in. The other day I was laying on my couch when I suddenly saw a wagon being pulled down a trail by some horses. It's always a brief thing that I see and it's gone.
Last night, I was trying to meditate in bed and keep my mind alert. I was focusing on my breathing and trying to let myself go. I suddenly saw in my head two people talking, but I couldn't clearly see them. That's when something else showed up. It seemed to step out of nowhere and I think it was waving like it wanted my attention. All I could see was something very dark. It might have had on a robe or cloak around it. I suddenly got shocked with fear. It felt like my eyes were fluttering. I didn't know if I should do anything. I gasped loudly to wake myself up and opened my eyes. I could still see it. I just pulled the covers over my head and hid until I fell asleep.
I don't know why I was so frightened. I guess the mystery of not knowing suddenly bothered me. I wasn't sure, was this a spirit guide or something else? I wasn't counting on my guide showing up as something so intimidating. I felt very scared and very alone.
I would really appreciate it if somebody could give me some advice so that I won't be worried next time I try. I don't have anybody else that can help me understand my experiences. My e-mail is loldenni [at] rocketmail[dot] com.
Thank you all for reading!