My name is Tonya Mae and I'm 15, I think I'm a medium but I don't have anyone to talk to (hence me using this site), so here it goes; here's my story:
When I was around 5 or 6 I used to have reoccurring dreams, most about this little boy whom I called my brother. A few weeks before my 7th birthday the dreams stopped, a few days before my 7th birthday my mom told me she was pregnant... Guess the gender! A little boy! Ever since my brother was born I've had dreams/visions of the future that come true.
When I was really young my Nan got cancer, me and my mom would Drive 3 hours out to the hospital and back almost everyday... When I turned 9 she died. On our way home I saw a white light in the corner of my eye and when I looked it was her! Ever since that day I've been able to sense the supernatural and a few times a year I can actually see spirits and random masses,
Also I can feel the feeling of people around me. It gets very overwhelming and I can't figure out which feeling are mine most of the time.
Finally more recently I have tried methods of dealing that weren't so smart; ie. Drinking alcohol, smoking weed, smoking, and pill popping. But things have gotten to a bad extreme... I feel as thou demons and spirits are trying to posses me, they make me feel, think, and see as they do... Sometimes it feels natural but other times it feels like I'm fighting to be me
Today I was searching for cleansing methods and I tried meditation, at first it felt like it was working but then I started seeing flashes of masses in my mind and I started shaking and I couldn't open my eyes for what felt like 10 minutes... Finally when I did I almost had a panic attack (also happening a lot lately) and I late noticed that the wick on my candle got totally messed up and looked like a big ball.
Does this make sense to any of you or am I completely insane? thank you so much for your time, and your comments are greatly appreciated!