First let me start by saying that this site has been of great comfort to me. It's nice to see that I am not the only one who is confused about what we can see and do.
I am looking for help understanding how to control an annoying ability that I have that is making me sick. For the past ten years I have seen my doctor and have been tested for heart, lung, and kidney disease. I think it's safe to say that my doctor is now convinced that I am a hypochondriac. My friends helped me come to the realization that the reason I am getting sick is that someone, usually close to me, is the one that is really sick.
Let me explain this better. One example of this is that a few years ago, I started having chest pain. I ended up in the emergency three times in a row due to the fact that I just couldn't take a deep breath without severe pain. Time and time again, the doctors would give me oxygen, pills and so on to open my airway and send me home with medication. I even had chest scans done and they never found anything that would explain the sudden chest pain. The only thing the doctors could tell me was that I had asthma. The attacks were sudden and very painful but I accepted the doctor's findings and continued to live in fear of the next attack. Finally a month went by with no attacks and I got a call telling me that my grandfather had lung cancer.
I would get pain in my back, severe to the point of crying, it would come on quickly and I was told it might be my kidneys. The pain came and went for days until it finally, just went away. A day or so after it stopped we got a call telling us that my father in law was in the hospital with kidney stones. Needless to say, no more pain for me.
Not too long ago, I was having trouble with my head. I felt like someone had put a blanket around my brain and I found that I could not speak properly and as having trouble thinking. I was afraid because the symptoms came daily and I had trouble keeping my balance. This went on for months and my doctor was very concerned. I was sure I had a blood clot or a brain tumor. So was my doctor. I had a CT scan done as well as an MRI due to the fact that months went by and I still had many symptoms that were affecting my job as well as my home life. That is when I started to ignore all spirits. Truthfully, every time I used my abilities it made what I was going through worse. Finally about three month ago everything stopped. No more speech problems or any of the other symptoms that had been bothering me. All tests came back clear and my doctor suggested anxiety pills...lol.
Last month my mother in law had what sounds like a mini stroke. She is now going through test and we are waiting for the results. She is slurring her words and has the same symptoms I had. Sadly I know her test, unlike mine will not be negative.
I am tired of being sick and I am looking for help understanding what is going on. I do meditate and this does not help. Just so you know, those are only three examples... I have been through much more. Any and all suggestions would be appreciated.