My fiance passed away suddenly just four months ago on July 9th, 2010. Soon after, I started seeing flashes of light orbs and other energies around me. They seem to get stronger each time. I have been seeing flashes of light balls for a very long time. But these are different.
Since his passing, I have been seeing very large and vivid blue energies and flashes around me. Yesterday I saw flashes that were about 3 feet in diameter. Sometimes they have a large white center and sometimes they look as though they are moving. And sometimes they are followed by other shadowy movement nearby.
I feel he is around me a lot. And I wonder if these flashes are him trying to communicate with me? I have also seen a portion of legs (a section at the calf about a foot long) that was light grey and see through walking right in front of me. Curiously, this does not scare me. I am usually quite a bit scared by things like this, but I do not feel it with this. The shadows happen all the time around me since his passing. I have seen ghosts and energy all my life, but this is now on a daily basis.
Then one night I saw his silhouette at the foot of my bed. I also heard crackling and beeping sounds coming from a corner of my room when this happened. Like there was a device in my room. I felt and heard buzzing in my head as well. I reached out to him several time and lifted out of my body. He did not move at all and I was trying in desperation to reach out to him. But he just would not move. I was then pulled from my body and sort of dragged out of my bedroom through my closet a foot away from where he was just standing. But he was not there now. I remember blessing the situation and asking higher power to come into the space. As soon as I did this, I was back in my body. My eyes were already open and my heart was beating so fast and I was out of breath. I am so curious about what this was. Is he trying to bring me to him? I have had a few other slightly scary experiences with him like this.
While I was meditating one day about a month after his death, he suddenly popped into my vision as clear as day. He was standing right in front of me looking as he always did. I was just meditating on openness and not guiding to a vision. He just appeared. He was in a sort of cave. It was a large space. He said this to me:
"Babe, I don't want to scare you, but you are going to die in 48 hours. I just want you to know [to prepare]." I remember thinking "no! I can't! I have work to do!" Which is interesting since for the first few months after his death, I felt like following him to the Other Side. I found myself in the middle of this cave and he was gone. A bunch of contracts were all around me. Some paper, some stone. I destroyed all of them. Then funnily enough, a white board appeared from the ceiling. My fiance had always used white boards to plan out his goals and idea. I wrote in big black letters, "I WILL NOT DIE IN 48 HOURS." Then I sent it back up towards the ceiling. I then became aware that there was a woman sitting in a chair by a small opening to the cave. She said to me, "We will consider your request." Then I came out of the meditation. I was scared for 48 hours:) But obviously nothing happened. But the vision was very, very real. I wonder why it happened?
I have a photo of my fiance that I took when he was 17. There is a red streak across the top. It looks like it's just light reflection. But it always reminded me of his passionate and at times, dangerous lifestyle. A few days after he passed away, I wore his hat to a special place we would go to. I took a few photos of myself wearing his hat. It was not until a few days later that I noticed there was a pronounced red streak and what looks like a little winged red energy on my neck. What do you think about this?
I am curious about your thoughts on this and why I seem to have some negative experiences with my fiance after his death?