Hey there...I'm 22 and quite unsettled with what all has been happening to me. Like everyone, it all started when I was little, say about 8 or 9 years old. Since then it's been happening off and on, and I don't really know what to make of it.
First of all, I have this ability of healing people. I just have to concentrate my energy into my hands and place them over the affected area and their pain goes away after awhile. But then a strange thing started happening... The centre of my palms started turning black as though something burned right through them, so I stopped and sure enough that mark went away. I want to know if I was doing something wrong over there?
Secondly, I keep seeing shadows and hearing voices all the time. Well off and on actually. And when I don't see or hear anything, I kind of start panicking thinking there's something wrong with me. I'm so used to it! =S Now, I work as a Biomedical Engineer in a hospital and there's this workshop that I have to keep a tab on, situated in the basement and there's a morgue nearby. I dread goin' down there sometimes because its bloody cold and the voices are unbelievable! But that too, happens on certain occasions only. I have no idea why I keep 'switching' off and on like this!
Thirdly, since I was a kid, I have felt quite empty from the inside... As far as my memory takes me, I have always found myself in search of some lady... I have no clue who but I'm in a constant search... And sometimes there's this lady in my dreams. I know her as though my search is over but her face keeps changing! I know I sound really weird here and maybe this isn't even the right place to post this but I need some guidance about this...
Im quite intuitive as I constantly keep listening to my inner self but for some reason, I just can't meditate! I have tried contacting my spirit guide (who I still don't know) several times but I have just fallen off to sleep! =P
Basically I'm quite unnerved and feel like a person with no direction when I'm cut off from all this. I don't mind shadows and the whisperings and the other things that happen to me but they just keep coming and going. I need some guidance on what I should do to keep all this constant and maybe some help on the meditation too.
Thanks a lot for the attention you'll gave, there are other things that I'd like to discuss but maybe after I get all this cleared out. I believe everything has its time because believe it or not, this is the 6th time I have tried to post this up in about a month and a half!