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Empath, Healer, Starseed.help?

 

You can call me Silver. I'm a girl, but that's where the personal information ends.

Ever since I was little I always felt different. Like I don't belong here. Every day I think "I want to go home". I've been reading different stories on here for almost a year now but I never had the courage to write until now. I feel like i'm not me. I am me but not who I imagine my face to be. Its a regular face but still.

I know I am an empath. I feel things other people feel at the same time, and on one occasion I had to adjust my hand and a few seconds later so did my teacher. I've never been to any doctor or psychiatrist since I am, in all senses, sane. Although I am "eccentric" by my friends terms.

I've been possessed before. I was bullied a lot in school, so it wasn't easy for me. I wanted revenge so, a "voice" (AKA spirit) helped me, but after it gained full control things turned. I started having gaps in my memories, stopped caring about my family (Only child, so that's huge), stopped eating. I felt hopeless. But then, I somehow had the strength to stop it. I heard voices but everything that happened I just assumed was normal until recently. I remember I got chased in the woods by the same spirit (I'd have nightmares about that spirit girl). Strange, though. In one of them she said "Silver and Shadow, Guardian and Phoenix." But her lips were moving as if she was saying a bunch of other stuff. I woke up in a cold sweat that night. (Oh, that was what 2.5 years ago now. And I still remember it in scary detail.)

My friend who is really fluent into the spirit world said that it was a wandering spirit (Then again, I didn't tell him about the possessed part) and that one that has been bugging me lately is a creeper who pinned onto me.

What happened, you may ask? Well, last year (After we moved to a new place) I kept having nightmares with the same energy that was with me when I was possessed. My right side started to shut down. For some reason I just kept it hidden for months until finally, one night.

I was going through the same routine: Feeling like nothing, my right side hurting, etc. Then, I couldn't move or speak. I felt something over me! I wanted to scream. I felt a knife or a sword go through me and I stopped. A coldness spread from that agonizingly slow, and when it got to my heart I just gave up. Then I stopped breathing and somehow I had a vision that I was just 100% blue and in a dark place... When SNAP! I started back up and was coughing like crazy. In my head, my friend was standing over me (She's psychic. We talked about things I never told anyone before.) and I was spazzing out and tried to comprehend what just happened. After studdering for a moment, she put her thumb on my forehead and I passed out. It was weird, like I was imbetween reality and my head. After that, she told me she was a psychic and she said that. That thing tried to kill me. I think it tried to kill her, too.

More on my abilities, I've attempted the telekinesis test a few times, and have gotten the red bar a little over halfway over. I try but the most I think I can do is make a hanging lamp sway slightly when my grandma was getting her nails done. (I don't like makeup, nails, etc. So I just sat in the waiting room)

I also have these random moments (around third period at school) Of me feeling extremely warm or really cold (I actually like the cold. I'm sitting outside while writing this.:3) and my side and back hurt.

My grandmother on my dads side, though. When me and my dad were saying goodbye after a visit she hugged me and almost...stuck? Her hand on my side. It hurt but ever since then its been dramatically better.

I don't feel the cold. I mean, I feel it and I can still shiver and everything but it just doesn't bug me unless its snowing or something.

I don't believe in any set religion, but I used to believe in multiple gods. Considering going back to that. No offense to any other religions, its just my belief. Please respect that.:)

And on to my love life. (You can skip if you want, I won't judge.)

Through all of my relationships, I've never fallen in love before I met (Changing the name for privacy) Bennis. He was the first guy who I liked, instead of the guy having a crush on me and me being an empath, well, you know how that goes. Bennis was different, though he's smart, funny, and overall caring. He's my first kiss, and i'm his. Even though he moved (I was crushed. Part of the reason for the delay.) away he still talks to me on nationstates. But it just isn't the same. He made a story for NS but he added our kiss in there. I've been decoding my dreams and even my friends' dreams. One of them dreamt that we all were butlers but Ben had a rose. A Damask rose. I made sure she was 100% sure. And then I had a dream last night that he had a tuxedo and a bouquet of them. What does this mean? It means (According to a symbol) that he could-COULD- be my true love *cue cheesy violin music*. I'm not sure though but that would be amazing.

I hope that I can learn how to heal and help other people. I remember reading a comment on something that said that a lot of people are being awakened for something that's going to happen next year. It lines up with how I've been feeling.

Now I should mention Oma. (I named her after Omashu, from the Avatar the last Airbender series. It sounded so nice!) She is a voice in my head, but not a bad one. She doesn't try to hurt me or ask me about anything, she just warns me if somethings nearby or let's me know if i'm too empathic. She helped me with the creeper of doom.

I miss ben but I hope he's faring well.

Anyway, i'm on my school computer so no Youtube or anything bad, but please if you have any advice i'd love to hear it. I'll comment on here, too so might as well get comfortable!

Peace and Hope,

-Silver

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GeorgiaMOM (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-12-01)
Alright! I got my family name today as well. It was about noon when my mom came by today and I found out that it's on my dad's side only (as far as mom knows). My Great Granny was a healer. So the abilities run for four generations back, so far, and her name was "Lovey". Yes I spelled it right. And you say it just as it's spelled.
The crazy thing is I was supposed to be named after her but mom said the exact moment that I came to the world the radio in the delivery room played "Sherry". You Know, the song in Dirty Dancing with the guy who sings really high. Yep! That's the one I was named after, thank God for radio.
Anyhow, I thought it was very unique & cool as crap that we both found out at about the same time about our ancestors. Don't you think. So Good luck and let me know what you find out and I'll do the same. Blessings to you, from one friend to another.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-12-01)
Her name is Bathsheba Young. I'll start my own research today.
Yeah, I might never understand men. 😜
Blissfully Oblivious~
-Silver
GeorgiaMOM (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-25)
That's interesting but be cautious to the interpretations you sipher from the dreams. But the girl on your dad's side has an interesting name. I think there may be some answers there. Oh and my son's anger is a issue just from the teen hormones kicking in, let alone the rest. We are working on it together. LOL... He doesn't even realize I'm teaching him the control methods. He thinks it's just self control techniques for football players. It's funny how he will only see things when decides to. Other wise he just sees mom being mom. Boys... Have to love their ability to do things just cause, and have no need to understand why. My step daughter is quit the opposite, she has to know why, when and how on every thing. Bless her heart she keeps me on my toes. Let me know what you find in your family's past. I think I'm going to research mine some more as well. Might just find some answers for myself. Good luck and blessings to you and your loved ones until next time.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
+1
10 years ago (2014-11-20)
The energy from the dream was the exact same, but I wasn't scared. I looked at the dogs eyes and a memory came back up in my dream of that one but i'm not sure if its the same entity or if its something else or what. All I know is its like it knew me and it wanted to help me, almost... Its like i've seen it before so it might be the same entity.
There IS a girl on my dads side called Bathsheba... When we look back on the Ancestry.com thing i'll take a closer peek at the last name and everything so I can take notes.
Ah. Tell him to keep an eye on anger, it can get out of control the fastest for empaths. I should know I had serious anger issues when I was little. Not fun.
GeorgiaMOM (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-20)
I've learned that the basic information is what the internet offers to our family trees. However when you push on with the research from the local papers you get little bits of details. Then if the story seems unusual or you feel drawn to the name you dig further. Back then nothing out of the ordinary was published to the public. Just get the family tree out and focus on it to see if you are drawn to one person's name. More than likely it's going to be on your dad's side. I'd start with that.
As for my son. He's dealing with things his way, which I must allow. He has to choose his path, I'm just here to pick him up if he falls. But eventually he's going to need help and I just have to have a firm grip on my own abilities before I can help him do the same. I believe he is empathic due to his behavior growing up and his understanding of others. Even at the young age of three when his father and I were going through a divorce, he would come to me (even if I was crying) calm as a cucumber and just rube my hair. He never said a word, simply gave a touch of comfort. And he always had an understanding of others, to a fault at times, even when kids were mean to him. He has an opened mind and believes in supernatural things. So I think that his friends may be influencing him without him realizing it. So patients and a watchful eye is what I've decided are best at the moment.
As for the dream you had. Do you think the girl and the dog are the same entity? Where you afraid or did you have similar emotions when the paw toughed you? Blessings from above I wish to pass on to you and your family.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-20)
Well we have started an Ancestry.com thing but nothing seems out of place. I'll have to do the research on my own one day...
He'd be better off to try and accept it, but whatever floats his imaginary little boat. 😊
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Last night I had a dream.
I was in an office, and me and (possibly?) one of my coworkers were chasing down a golden retriever. When I caught up to it (My coworker was sooo slow.) It had the same blue eyes as that dream way back when! I realized what it was, shocked but then it put its paw on my head and said "Others..." then I woke up and i'm shockingly better from my bad cold i've had recently. Not sure if the allergy meds and ibuprofen worked or if something happened... Researching dogs in dreams as I speak.
GeorgiaMOM (guest)
+1
10 years ago (2014-11-19)
That's such a sham. Dads are like that, figure if you don't acknowledge things it will just go away. You should try researching your family tree then. I found some interesting things in my family. Some funny and others seemed a little strange. Like an uncle that went crazy one night and walked out in front of a train. Just find the line then research the local news papers for more indepth information. It might help you determine the origin of this. And what type of nightmare did your mom have. Was it in the same nature as your experience? Or was it just the dream? Oh, and thanks, regarding my son. We just take it one day at a time. I think that with the lose of his best bud/cousin it may have awakened his abilities. Just waiting to see what those might be and for any signs that he's having a problem. I think he's chosen to dismiss it and in doing so it will go away (with his way of thinking). Which is not the case. We'll just have to wait and see.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-19)
Thats the thing! Ever since my Granddad passed our family rarely sees each other anymore. (Branches of the family anyway.) I mentioned how I can see "Radio Static" but my dad dismissed it as a reflection of light. My mom surprised me by having a "Night Terror" experience, but its similar to last year. She isn't hurt, thankfully. I think my dad knows more but neither of them will tell me anything when I drop hints. I just don't want to ask because they'll shove it off like always.
Best of luck with your son, I hope he does okay 😳
-Silver
GeorgiaMOM (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-19)
I don't know, but I think maybe your parents may know more than they are telling you. Mine did, and maybe my dad would of been able to help me if I'd said something. But "should of" or "could of" thoughts change nothing for me now. You how ever, might think of throwing little hints just to see what their response to the subject matter is like. And base your choices to share things with them based on fact instead of suspicion of what might be their reaction. I as a parent know that when I myself fear for one of my children or something, I try my best to not show them that fear. Mostly to keep them calm and protect them. If my children see me freaked out it will make them even more frightened! Trust me I know this from experience. Right now one of my sons is starting to deal with the dreams of future events and other things and if I don't have the answers he needs I research it. Regardless, I am very grateful that he feels he can talk to me but never would of known had it not been for one simple question he'd asked.
Also, sometimes the history of our families comes full circle, and most of the time the elders know more than they let on. If you do discover that you can't talk to your parents try asking your grand parents or some other elder of the family. Simple things like, "Do you know of any odd things occurring with our family?' Or, "Do you know if anyone in our family tree had abilities?" Be general about it, don't be specific and if it causes questions your not ready for just tell them it's for a school project. Old stories about crazy great uncles and aunts sometimes become enlightening and entertaining as well. LOL. You'll never know until you try.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-19)
[at] GeorgiaMOM: It was a sort of a life-changer moment for me. It scared me but it opened my awareness. I hope i'm dealing with it okay, but when I told my parents way back when they asked me to step out and when they told me to come back their whole demeanor had changed from fear to forced calm. I think if they knew what had happened last year...They'd be afraid of me... And be afraid for themselves...
Zin (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-19)
IsrantasArtir

Alright, I emailed you at the email that is listed on your profile.
GeorgiaMOM (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-18)
Your story reminds me of one of my most frightening experiences as a young girl. I was in the 4th or 5th grade and my older (by 15 mo) sister & I shared a bedroom. I kept having nightmares about this man, with dark shorter hair, long face, greenish brown eyes (just a hint of green) and a pronounced bone structure with full lips. During the dream he would be in my face, speaking, but for some reason the most frightening thing was he would move his mouth but the actual sound of the words didn't flow with the movement of his lips. He spoke in a strange language at times and at others he just spoke about things I was afraid of and telling me what I could and couldn't do, specifically not telling my parents or he would hurt them. I remember a black abyss (everything was black), with a rocking chair. Lights moved over head, similar to the borealis lights in Alaska. Then the lights would form this hole, kind of like a black hole and the rocker would disappear at the same time. It was right in front of us, and seemed to be pulling me in. I woke and I still remember being frozen to the bed, unable to move and when I finally was able to get up I ran to my parents room and was trying to scream but nothing would come out. I don't know how long I tried to wake them but it seem like an eternity. When I went back to my room I laid down and everytime I closed my eyes I seen this man in my face so I tried to keep my eyes open. Next thing I remember is waking and my mom wanting to know why one of my toys was on the floor beside their bed that morning. I just told her that my sister must of taken it, as my mom gave it back to me. I don't know why I didn't tell her. I just was too afraid.
Your experience with the voice not speaking with the lips just made me feel comfort in the fact that I'm not the only one that has had dreams and moments like this. It also took me back to that fear that it gave me. I hope your's wasn't a life changer as mine was. It seems you are dealing with it better than I was able.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-18)
Okay good point...*breathes a bit* Sorry I just panicked a bit there.
For now, I had a big issue with my spots yesterday during I/R (Sort of like a break between classes.) It was like all of my energy was burning at once on my back and my side and my hands and my face... Not fun. Strangely didn't happen today, but that might've been because its super cold outside.
Zin (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-18)
Beats me, it could be the opposite, but I don't worry as it could be any number of things.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-18)
Wait so if the one I saw was opposite of that blond one...d-does that mean something bad will happen if i'm right?!
IsrantasArtir (6 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-18)
Zin, I might know of some of these people, but if you want more information and would like to get into better discussion, please email me. My email is on my profile. We did email once too.
Zin (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-17)
Would you happen to know where these people are located, including her?
IsrantasArtir (6 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-17)
Zin, I'm not entirely sure about the purpose she's seeking them for. I'm sure it's something connected to the end of the world and trying to save as many people as possible. It is said that when the 5 of them unite, nothing will be impossible for them
Zin (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-17)
SwordsofFlight

Well I am not sure what they mean, I can look around and see if I cannot find something about them.

IsrantasArtir

To what purpose does she seek them?
IsrantasArtir (6 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-17)
Zin, I know of the blonde you speak of. Apart from looking like made of light, she has strange white/blue markings all over her body. She is looking for 5 people, but their names are entirely different from those mentioned in the story. The ones she's looking for are: the healer, the soul, the seeker, the messenger and the time stopper.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-17)
For some reason i've had the idea that "Silver and Shadow, Guardian and Phoenix" Meant that 4 people would get together: Like a prophecy or something. My other theory is that its about me and my right and left side, hot and cold hands.
I'm not sure what to think, personally. Maybe its both.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-17)
I think either some repeat of last year or something will happen in the future. I don't know but whatever it is its important.
Still wish I knew what Silver shadow guardian phoenix meant. Its the last key to the puzzle... SO CLOSE!
Somethings touching me now. Poking my back. *tries not to spazz out*
Zin (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-17)
What do you think will happen? Since you seem to have some idea of something about to happen.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-17)
Marks but possibly, since this happened last year before what me and Cellist experienced... I don't know what can happen this time, though since I'm bracing for it.
Zin (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-14)
Perhaps something is happening, with the mark reactivating?
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-14)
There's something watching me. Before halloween, I heard church bells outside (No church for miles)
Then last night I felt something then heard them before I went to sleep... Also laughing...
Just random! Documenting.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-12)
I figured out what the timestamp meant! My friend had to go home today because she got sick (Had a vision at lunch around the EXACT time from EDT to EST) and had puked.
Gross and random, but at least I figured it out.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-12)
truely-unknown
Thats how I feel at random times. What I do is I either A) Imagine a bunch of frozen/hot packs all over my arms or B) Wait for it to blow over and just try to focus on what i'm doing.
Zin
Makes sense. Although she either goes by Karma or Kanna... Not sure they're demons but i'm open to possibilities about Spark.
The-Cellist
Please do! I didn't think i'd find anyone else with this, even on here! When I read your story it made me think for a bit but now its for certain that i'm not alone. 😆 I had a bad moment yesterday with my spots. Even the sage and salt on my necklace didn't help... I think that something or someone either needs help or wants attention or something. That or my spots just got irritated by my bad fall the other day. Did anything happen to you as well? Also, Does the name of the guy start with Lyo? (I thought of the name before in a roleplay so I thought i'd ask)
truely-unknown (10 stories) (106 posts)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-11)
How you described the whole thing about your right side failing and feeling heavy, and that ankle feeling broken... That's been my experience the past two months. There is one thing I wonder about though. I've recently been passing out a lot and overheating and locking up so I can't remove my jacket. Even without my jacket I still get heatstroke in extremely cold weather, as in below freezing. It's my left side that's been failing. My heart feels like it's been lit on fire when it happens. My mark is over my spine, which wasn't really hurting or anything until about two months ago, it was there for almost 5 years.
Zin (guest)
 
10 years ago (2014-11-11)
Hmm, Karma and Spark? If they are demons, that's probably not their real names, just a name they like to go by, like a nickname.

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