Since my last post, things have picked up a bit around here. I believe I have unlocked all of my memories again, and it turns out I hid something.
Ever since I was a baby, something in the back of my head kept convincing me to do things the wrong way. Like "How fun would it be to draw on the wall?" or "Wouldn't it be nice to get away from all this?". I remember blanking out when I was really little, some guy had tugged on my hoodie, and a few seconds later I was on his back, pulling on his. The teacher looked at me with this eerie look in his eye and I stopped. I had no idea what I was doing! Thats what it was like about every time I was upset or angry.
When we moved to my previous house, I had a sort of a break. I didn't have that bad of anger issues. It was my last year in middle school. I had a "boyfriend" (More of a best friend. We were kids.) and my parents stopped fighting.
And then I went to middle school.
I got picked on because I was different, I got sent home every day, nobody did anything to help, my mom stressed out like crazy, my dad shut down in a way... I remember thinking I was alone. I wanted revenge. I focused on empathy for the bad guys in stories... I called that voice back, in a way.
Things mellowed out after a while. I took even longer hikes into the woods, which was nice, despite me talking to myself. I got put in an online school after a year and a half. My parents were still stressed out about money, but everything seemed to be ok.
I began to notice more about the forest: The look of the sun on the trees in the morning, dew drops on the soft moss, a spider in its web, etc.
One day, I remember a lady walking her dog in the forest. I called out to her but she couldn't hear me! I followed her, just in case she fell or something. I tried to talk to her but she still didn't respond. Finally, she turned a corner and got over a log (I couldn't get over it, but she got over easily.) She gave me a look as if to say "You don't belong here. Go home." And Disappeared. I never saw her or her dog again. My parents said she just could have had hearing issues but... Why did she look at me, then?
I remember what the logs from the last post felt like. They had some sort of symbols carved into them, but only at the ends. They whispered something in some other language or in gibberish.
The girl wasn't trying to track me down or to hurt me: She was trying to warn me about what I brought with me.
(I remember being tripped in the backyard when I was really really little, and ever since then I've had this mark on my left ankle. I used to think it was a spider bite that never healed but...)
The whole time, she was just protecting her home! And even here when the experiences continued she could have been the one to summon my friend somehow!
I've realized I've been "rubbing salt in my wounds". I was depressed about Bennis so I kept having bad dreams and feeling meaningless, but nothing close to last year has happened. He's moved on, I'm moved on...
Onto my hands. I've read an article on Palmistry recently, and so far I've been reading my own hands. Just the thicker marks, not the light ones yet. Something that keeps my attention is that on my right hand I have an island. On my left I have a split.
I've been getting stronger at seeing the aura. So far i'm at teal, yellow, white, and green-blue and purple. Nothing specific and I can't control when I see other people's but its still better than when I started.
I can see glows in the sky above the forests around us. Some are weaker than others, some are green, blue, etc.
Last night (11/24/14) something happened. All of the glows, all at the same time, glowed brighter than ever; Even the one that's supposed to be nearly invisible! This could be a sign of something personal or a whole number of things. Last year when only one of the glows was super-bright, something had come out of a spirit portal. It scared my friend, and he never GETS scared! I just hope this isn't something major. After all, I kept seeing more stuff out of the corner of my eye last night. Even a shadow man for the first time. (List view: Shadow man, small spirit ball, green-yellow spark, blue spark that I saw before in the guitar room (Granddad?), whispers from a lady.) I don't know if i'm just unlocking more of my abilities or not.
I may be a technopath. I use my empathy on the bus and (If the bus driver isn't paying a bit of attention) I can slightly speed up or slow down the bus. Nobody notices, though. And if I really really want to get out of a situation, something always happens and I feel a bit tired. Possibly coincidence but i'm not sure.
Not much news on the whole "prophecy" theory. Other than the dog dream, nothing has come up. (Copy and paste: I was in an office, and me and (possibly?) one of my coworkers were chasing down a golden retriever. When I caught up to it (My coworker was sooo slow.) It had the same blue eyes as that dream way back when! I realized what it was, shocked but then it put its paw on my head and said "Others..." then I woke up and i'm shockingly better from my bad cold i've had recently. Not sure if the allergy meds and ibuprofen worked or if something happened...)
Thanks so much for everyone commenting on my last story, best of luck with everyone!
Peace and light,