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A Family Gift Or Curse: What About Me Is My Fault?


It has been a while since I've been on here, almost too long. My school life is ending, and within the timespan of this story and the previous, I've grown a lot, spiritually, mentally, physically. Some things i'm hoping to gain answers, some I know there aren't answers for them. It turns out i'm not the only one in my family somewhat spiritual. To my surprise, it's on my Mom's side, from my grandparents. A bit of relief, since I thought I was the black sheep in the room, but despite the short conversation i'm a bit more understanding of this whole thing. Remember back in one of my first stories with the girl in the woods? (Should be one of the first two*) My mom has recently theorized that because I was picking up sticks in the woods, a snake might have been nearby and she/it was protecting me. (Snakes have a majpr symbolism in this family for change, so I believe it was a double meaning.) Anyway, whenever the conversation about this started, I asked about if anyone in the family was really spiritual or where I could have gotten my spiritual side from, my mom sort of muttered it as a "Gift/Curse". Is this linked with the whole "Silver and shadow guardian and phoenix" thing? I thought I figured out what it meant but now i'm even more confused. (Don't know if its relevant but apparently someone in my family was in Salem. Weird.)

I've also seen a lot of stories on here of darkness reaching kids or teens, basically younger people. Specifically ones of interest right now are red-eyes. I don't know if I mentioned this before but one time back at the previous place (I moved about a year ago, much happier now spiritually and socially,) I saw either two somewhat distant brake lights in the woods, that stared at me for a while before I went inside. I did everything I could to try and make my brain not see the red dots: Blinked, shook my head, walked with the dog (now passed) in circles... I never saw those brake lights again. It makes me wonder if they had any connection to what has happened to me in my life.

With all of my growth lately, I have begun to question what parts of everything that happened were truly my doing, and what parts were the...things...hurting me and using me throughout my life. Up until recently I had a million different "things" in my head, telling me what to do and keeping me up at night with my mistakes and errors. Finally, I decided to stop putting up with it and faced some issues I had personally, and slowly but surely they left me alone / are leaving me alone... What are/were they? Is all this just because I had dark times when I was small? What am I? Are my mental scars and spiritual scars by chance or my own doing? How will things progress when i'm out of the house? Is there anyone who has been through what I have and has answers?

Any Feedback is appreciated, I hope with this someone'll help tie up all these loose ends. If not, then I guess I have a lot to fix on my own. (Bit of a disclaimer, i'm not religious at all. However, I respect others' ideas nonetheless, so feel free to say anything whether it relates to God or Jesus Christ or not.)

(*If you're super confused on what i'm going on about in parts of this story, feel free to look at or skim my other publications on here to get an idea. Also remember that I've had this account for a few years, so I don't necessarily think the same way. Thank you)

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Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
8 years ago (2016-09-03)
I'm sorry to make one-sided comments, just making sure this isn't buried in the stream of input.
I think the breeze has something more than atmokinesis or aerokinesis. Now its graduated to blacking out for a split second, or the world being sucked away for a bit. It's incredibly hard to describe and the more I think about it the more confused I am 😐
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
8 years ago (2016-08-17)
If it's easier for you, I found my old wattpad: PeppermintMaster is the username. I don't write on it anymore but if you want there is a private message function. Take your time, still, Rock, just thought I'd post this in case you wanted to pm after all. 😊
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
8 years ago (2016-08-16)
That's a bit disappointing, I thought I was in the clear from attachments. At the same time, it makes sense. Considering that the throat Chakra is associated with voice or speech, it aligns with my communication struggles that I have on occasion, if that makes sense.
I'm an open book, feel free to scan away.
It's fine, no rush here.:3
RockShan (guest)
8 years ago (2016-08-15)
Sorry it took me a couple of days to respond, didn't feel like scanning for the past day or two.

So I read / am reading your energy, I instantly, well almost felt some kind of entity possible latched on to you... Along with something wrong with your throat chakra, I recommend while showing you "imagine" or feel all of your chakras opening up and any much or dirt in their energy going or cleaning away. For this entity, it feels negative I recommend you try some energetic warfare. I can help with that if you wish, These are just the simple almost instant things I felt, I can look a lot deeper and got a lot more information any time.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
8 years ago (2016-08-13)
Posting it on here is perfectly fine. My hope is that one day someone might find answers on here as well if not easier as I have.
Makes sense. I doubt private messaging will be absolutely necessaryou, if it is ill figure something out.
The energy all around us, like Chi and things like that?
RockShan (guest)
8 years ago (2016-08-13)
Okay, that is okay if you can't contact threw email, if needed would could contact threw any other way, example skype, private message on a forum etc. But the "Energy" I speak of is, the energy all around us that has many forms, the ability's you may have are of a large variety, as you say it feels like a breeze, that is often related to Aerokinesis, or Atmokinesis, (Aero = Air, Atmo = Storms/Weather).

Those spirits don't seem too harmful but they will leave soon as you grow in strength, this will most likely cause stronger entity's to take there places into you gain even more strength, or learn how to do offensive, and defensive abilities.

Now for my reading / Scans, I only need your username to do a reading, but I prefer to get someones permission to do the scans / reading first. I can easily post the results here if you wish.
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
8 years ago (2016-08-13)
I can't exactly use my email, long story.
I've skimmed your profile a bit so I kind of get the just of what you mean with not being able to write all your experiences down in a comment. I'll try and read more.
What kinds of abilities? I've never felt energy like this before.
Yes, pretty bad experiences in the past but thankfully that chapter of my life has closed. As far as seeingredients things goes, I always catch things in the corners of my eyes or feel like someone's behind me and nobody's there. Or strangely someone patting my head or having their hand on my head.
How does a reading of yours work? 0.0 Does it not work through pe?
I really appreciate your response, Rockshan 😳
RockShan (guest)
8 years ago (2016-08-13)
Swordsoflight, I can help you with whatever you need, I have had many experiences related to what you speak of, I can't right it all down on here but feel free to shoot me a message at shanon.beck1 [at] with any questions. Regarding the "strange" things happening with your hands, that is more-so sounding like energy, maybe manifesting in certain ways due to ability's you currently have but don't know it. I skimmed one of your stories but haven't read them all yet due to it being late but, from what I can tell you have had bad experiences with spirits in the past? Such as seeing them getting closer in the corner of your eyes? Etc etc. I have had this before, but most spirits have gone, well the harmful ones that is because they now know better well most at least... If you send me a message I could do a Scan / Reading, to find out almost any information you need too figure things out. (Of course I do these for free).
Swordsoflight (6 stories) (90 posts)
8 years ago (2016-08-12)
Things keep getting more confusing as time goes on, it seems as if the more I figure out about myself the more questions rise.
I know for sure I'm an empath, but even with help from previous stories, it just seems like I'm at a block or crossroads.
Lately my hands have been acting strange, along with the rest of me. It's as if there's always a breeze on my right hand or right side. Not even a breeze, but lighter.
I'm grasping at straws to figure things out. I've been trying for three years now and I'm at my wits end.
I get the strong feeling I have to resolve this before high school ends, but why? Is it just because I won't be around my parents as much or something because of college?
Any help or feedback is appreciated greatly.

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