When I was a small child, my mother said that I would run out of a room saying that someone was whispering in my ear. I remember seeing things in my house, things I don't even like to discuss because they scared me so bad. I was afraid to sleep in my own room at night. I would sleep on my brother's floor or in my mother's bed even as a teen.
For a while I was in a house with a lot of people, so the whispering around me was less frequent, but since living alone it has either become more frequent or I am just noticing it more. What I don't understand is, why do they keep talking to me when I can't hear a word they are saying. I can hear that there is whispering around me, but I can't make out the exact words. I have thought about getting some recording equipment, but this whispering kind of scares me.
During the day I just laugh sometimes because it's like Geeze, "Dude, I can't hear you..." I have told them out loud that I can't make out what they are saying, but I guess they can't say it any louder. At night when I am laying in bed trying to fall asleep, it can be quite unnerving and I always sleep with every light on in my house. I think my fear keeps me from developing this gift further.
I want to develop it in one way, but I'm scared in another, so I have just tried to ignore the whispering all together. There have been times I see things out of the corner of my eye and I think they affect my dreams. I have been awakened twice recently, once by a child yelling, "Mommy" and a second time by a woman yelling "My Name", another time someone tapped me on my hand to wake me but there was no one there when I opened my eyes.
Once I had one of them breathe right in my ear (while I was awake) and say something I couldn't make out. That really scared me. I don't know what to do here. I won't tell anyone about this because they'll think I am crazy. Should I try to develop this gift or try communicating through EVP? Is there a danger in interacting with what is around me? I am afraid that I will be playing with something I don't understand and opening a door I can't shut when I'm done.
Can anyone tell me how their psychic awakening felt and if it sounds similar to what I am experiencing. I have also felt depressed and just like I can't get my life on track. I feel like I have no energy. Please tell me if anyone has been through this?