I just turned 22 yesterday. This is my first post on any sort of website like this, and to be honest it's the first time I have ever felt a need for outside help or advice with what I experience. I started having what I can only describe as visions or premonitions when I was about 6/7, or at least that's when I first remember having one.
In the vision I was driving with my mother to the mall but I was much older and sitting in the front seat. As we were driving I looked out the window and saw a tiny little orange airplane with a white stripe wrapped around the middle going down with smoke coming from the tail. I was young so I didn't understand what had happened, but when I was 13 it happened. I saw the plane- same colors, same markings- going down with smoke, I was with my mother in the front seat, she saw it too, and that night it was on the news. That was when I first understood what happened was not Deja Vu. At the time I didn't know what to do about it or where to turn to so I decided to ignore it and push it as far away as I could... It being visions.
The most recent incident was today. It was different from what I experienced as a child. I was on a FaceTime call with my friend Tabby, and as she was talking and speaking the words I knew that we had already had this conversation in that moment in time. Same mess in my room, the laptop behind my phone, I had seen that before, I had heard what and who she was telling me about. I had seen and experienced this whole moment already and I can't explain why or how I knew I had already done it, but it was not the same feeling of confusion or a sense of something familiar that one gets when they experience Deja Vu. It was certainty, I knew it in my core, I had either already done it, or it had already happened somewhere else on the time continuum. It was a crystal clear memory.
Some of my visions are good, some are bad. Sometimes when they happen the outcome is the same but the process is different, and sometimes the process and the outcome are the same as how they happened in my vision. Most of my visions center around me and something I see or experience in the future, or in the possible different timelines of my existence. I guess what I am asking here is, what is this? What do I call it? Can I harness it? I know that what I am dealing with is time, or at least different variations and experiences of it, and understanding time completely is near impossible... But what can I do to work with it instead of being completely blind