I have been reading other stories on here and I'm not exactly sure if this is where I should be submitting but I am hoping to get some kind of feed back to this.
I started to have out of body experiences. Once I realized what was happening, I practiced them and was able to do it mostly whenever I wanted. I started to get really good at it. I have even seen and spoke to my mother who passed about 4 years ago. Then it seemed to stop. Instead I would seem to get stuck in my body or stuck in the room. I felt like I was struggling so hard to pull myself out. I felt like I was tossing and turning all around and even a few times thought I feel off the couch. When I was able to leave my body I couldn't leave the room. I stopped trying. Then I started to have what I guess I realized is just sleep paralysis. One night, I felt all the sensations of an OBE... Body vibrating, ringing in ears, feeling "free"...but I still felt stuck in my body. Once again I felt I was struggling to hard to pull myself out. I thought I stood up and was spinning around in circles trying to "get out." But I realize I'm not actually moving so I'm fighting to actually move my body. So this kind of thing keeps happening and its scary. I read about it and I guess its sleep paralysis. It scared me. I can't have an OBE now, instead this happens.
Now it happens a lot even when I'm not trying. I feel like I get to the moment right when you should be leaving your body and it just all goes wrong. When it starts to happen now, I pray for it to stop and I say "Please not right now" and it goes away.
Now the sleep paralysis calms down and it's more about very loud ringing in my ear. (the ringing in my ear always happened during sleep paralysis but now the ringing is much worse) A friend told me it's spirits trying to talk to me and I need to listen. Last night the ringing started and it was extremely loud. At first I tried to fight it. Then I thought I should just try to listen. But it got so loud. It reminded me of a train whistle. I felt like if I screamed, my scream would not be heard over this ringing. My boyfriend was asleep next to me and my fingertips were touching him. So this ringing is going on and I'm trying to pinch him so he will "wake me up." I say it like that because I feel like I am awake and totally aware of what's going on but I can't move my body. He actually did "wake me up" because he said I was shaking.
I also read you should not sleep with a mirror facing you. My bed faces the bathroom mirror. After I started having sleep paralysis I made sure to close the bathroom door and that seemed to help. Last night I forgot to shut the door. After my boyfriend woke me up I got up to shut the door and the ringing didn't happen again.
My friend to me to listen to the ringing. So I tried, but I feel like if this is something trying to talk to me it is not something positive because the ringing is very unpleasant. And as much as I am open to experiencing these things. This ringing scares me. Also I wonder (whether positive or negative) how am I supposed to listen to this ringing and understand what it means?
I wonder about the link (if any) between sleep paralysis and OBE's. To me, I feel like sleep paralysis are my OBE's gone wrong. I feel like I'm about to have an OBE but I get stuck inside my body and I'm fighting to get out. It started out with getting stuck in the room to getting stuck in my body. I feel like I've blocked something that I was just starting to "unlock." I can't seem to find any answers to this. I would love to get back to my pleasant OBE's and away from this scary sleep paralysis.
I hope this is where I am supposed to post this. Sorry if it is not. I appreciate any answers. I just found this website and I hope I can get some help. Thanks so much!